Quick Update!

Hey all!
Wow can't remember last time I wrote a post. I've been meaning to update you guys on my life but haven't had the time. Georgina emailed me and figured I'd write a post and update everyone. I'm so happy for her and her boyfriend, I hope I can have that some day!
Last post I wrote I had decided to make things official with my SD. We had the best month of our life..yes month. After we made things official the wife came around making him feel guilty about each thing he did. She wanted him back, and wanted to work things out. He was torn, and with 4 kids involve I guess he thought going back was the right thing to do. We started arguing a lot, the wife was calling me, and just became a lot of drama.  Things with us became very tense, so we ended up breaking up. After breaking up, he would come back around trying to see me without wanting to get back together, and I wasn't ok with that. I knew he started seeing a new girl--not an SB but just regular dating..and in between that many different hook ups and dominatrix. We kept in touch but I never hooked up with him, I still loved him and didn't want to be just another one of his girls. That's been going on for months..I've been dating some amazing men but i could not get over him. We've been broken up for about 5 months now, but lately he started texting me how he misses me, how I'm the love of his life, he wants to work things out and put a lot of it in the past to start fresh. I had agree to meet him for a drink last night-we caught up with things. He still look great and the attraction is still there. After having drinks with him I had a date with an SD, I obviously didn't tell him that. After the date with the pot SD(he reminds me of George from Seinfield--the way he talks lol but he's cute and only 44)..after the date I ended up at my exes door. He was home and his 4 kids were in bed. We chatted and flirted and yes I opened a can of worms--we made love and it was amazing. Must have done it 3 times, I was going to leave so his kids doesn't see me if they wake up but he wanted me to spend the night. It felt like old times sleeping with him..I did tell him I wanted to take things slow but I just wanted him so bad. I guess the girl that he's dating is in love with him, he said he's not in love with her, she's not me. I told him if he wants us back together there can't be anyone else involve. I don't know where things are going to go but I was seeing a guy and broke things up with him cause I wasn't interested and he was only keeping me busy which I felt bad about.

I have an Italian man who I met from Match and have been seeing. He's 39, hot!! divorce, no kids, great job. He's had to travel for work for at least 2 months in Europe. That was a problem with me but he said when he's back in town he won't have to travel much anymore so he wants to see where things can go with us. We have a great attraction, he's fun and take me out to the nicest places. He's definetly the safest option..but now my ex just randomly came back in the picture. I love my ex still, regardless of his baggage I still want to get back together with him. ..What do I do??

I have given up Sugar for awhile. My ex SD who live in NYC travels to Boston every month or so. He always take me to dinner we hook up and gives me sugar. I recently started getting back in the game. I met this guy who I've chatted with a lot before, he's a hot 58 yr old. Rich, of course, and very good looking. We didn't talk about an arrangement per say but he wants to mentor me and help me with my goals. We went to a  couple of networking events together, he's well known. He's married and traveling to CA and India for 2 months. We ended up hooking up before he left and left me with a good lump sum. He's back in January. Last night I met a pot who lives close to me, and looking for an SB. He had an SB for awhile until she had to move away. He's cute and really nice. I'd start something with him until I can figure where things will go between my ex and I.

This felt good getting it all off my chest! I'll take any advice :)

Xoxo

Sugar baby turned Trophy Girlfriend?

I made things official with Mr.S
I'm back at my place and it feels like a fresh and new start. When I came to my place, he had flowers waiting for me, he stocked up my fridge with all the food he knows I like, cleaned my bathroom, my room and kitchen. My place was spotless, and man I can get use to that!

We went a week without seeing each other since FL but decided to meet halfway a few days before new years. Went to the casino, saw Coldplay in concert for the second time. I arrived at the hotel first, and he came later...mind you we both drove through a snow storm lol. It's been a whole week without seeing him and I was like a puppy waiting for him to come. I opened up the door to our room, he walked in, dropped his belongings and I jumped on him with my legs wrapped around him. It was a beautiful moment, this whole time I've hated being away from him.
That night we made things official, I told him how I felt. I don't want a half ass relationship, I want him all in. I'm hoping his divorce doesn't take too long, I'm hoping maybe a year or less but that's wishful thinking. I'm hoping I have a ring sometime the end of 2013 lol I'm not getting younger
My main goal for 2013 is to get my start up off the ground. It's my main focus, and before anything happen between Mr.S and I I want to have my own money, I might not be as rich as him but I want to have some success as an entrepreneur so I can move on to bigger and better things.

I'm so proud of him. His new house is all set up. I love it..for a single dad but it's not my dream house lol. I have no intention of moving in anytime so yeah. We're trying to go from sugar to being a normal couple. He's still taking care of me, that's not gonna change. But there isn't a limit on days we see each other. He slept over at my place these past few nights and it was cute. But he's also giving me my space. basically no more having to hang during the days (unless we make plans) because he can just come home to me at night. I used to hate cramming in 2-3hrs to spend time together.  I'll start sleeping at his place too..just not now. I don't want his employees seeing me since he moved his office to his house. We're still us. Not much have changed. He's still and if not more loving. I'm head over heels and I hope things get better and better from here.
So many changes are happening, it's a new year, new goals, and I feel great that I'm starting it all with an amazing man who care about me in every aspect. I closed a big chapter in my life as a sugar baby..I'm starting a new one as a girlfriend..and hopefully I'll be closing that and starting one as a wife.

I'm happy for all the advice I've received here, the stories I've read, the girls I've shared so much with.
This is my last post, I'll take the blog off after a little while.
It's a New Year! Wish everyone good luck on their journey.

To be or not to be

So, I'm still in FL with Mr.S
It's not really a vacation..he's working a LOT and I don't mind it. Dude need to make money, and I'm not going to get in the way of that.
We exchanged Christmas gifts and I'm a very happy girl. He did a great job picking everything out.
He got me Gucci Guilty- smells amazingggg! Burberry shades, burberry umbrella, a christmas ornament made of pictures of me, tennis diamond bracelet, tiffany's diamond ring, a nice card with the warmest words, I'm in love.
I got him an expensive bottle of henny, Versace shirt, socks, burberry boxers, Hermes perfume and a card.

We have been playing house. We're staying at one of his clients 3 bedroom beach front apartment. It's sooooo beautiful, we both want to just live here lol.
Today he traveled to Miami and Naples, such a long drive from where we are. He left at 6am and not going to be back till late night. I'm missing him.
He gave me his credit card, I had a spa day. Hot stone massage, eyelash extensions, mani/pedi
I feel rejuvenated. I shopped for a victoria secret lingerie piece after to surprise him when he gets back, just a little thank you for pampering me like a princess.

We have been talking a lot and having heart to heart conversations.
I'm so confuse about things, he asked me to be his girlfriend.
Not in a way where he'd stop doing things for me, some guys would do that, but he wants to keep doing things for me and more but have a real relationship.
I feel like it's too soon, I haven't given him an answer. There's no doubt this man loves and adore me, but it's all a lot to take in.
I talked to my one friend who knows about him but she wasn't much help, showed little to no interest. I need sugar babies perspectives.
He knows I want a great life style, to be a power couple, have my own business and he has his. He has 4 kids, and he's talking about me meeting them after they're settled in.
I had to have this kind of talk with him so he knows my expectations, I want to get married in 2-3 years, not sure about kids- which is fine since he got enough for the both of us.
I've told myself the next relationship I get into will be the one to lead to marriage and never on my life did I think it would be with him. I feel like you my readers have followed my story for this past year, so if I'm going to make a huge mistake I want to get some insights and weigh out both options.

It's Official

This have been the weirdest/unassured week of my sugar experience. Mr.S is deff getting a divorce. They both have their lawyers drawing up documents and negotiating. He has been a great friend to me for the past 3 years so I didn't mind him staying at my place. He stayed over for 3 days, it was weird going to sleep with him every night and how sweet and very loving he is. I kept telling him it's all weird but he disagree, he said it's perfect. 

We haven't talked yet about what's going to happen with our arrangement. I have so many questions. He keep dropping hints about things that are making me wonder. 

So far, I know he's going to keep taking care of my needs. Wifey gets half of everything they have now which he say isn't much. Because of how he make his money or something, but bottom line is he's offering her a lot more than the maximum he's required to give her because he wants them to live comfortably- or is it guilt that he broke her nose hmmmm. 

He signed a lease on a new house, he's setting up a home office in the house (he only have 2 other employees), he's going to have 2 bedrooms for the kids. He's saying stuff about me sleeping over and his employees seeing me(I know one of his employees already- he writes my checks and pay my bills lol)..cooking for me..little stuff that we never did due to him being married. 

I feel like things are going to be different...he's going to be single and idk if there'll be another me or if he's going to date, those are all questions that we haven't address. 

He's in FL and I'm heading down there for the week, so we'll get a chance to talk a lot and figure things out. I don't think I want to fit in the girlfriend role, especially to a newly separated man, who have had multiple affairs etc..I would rather he go fuck whatever he wants to fuck and still be with me like we are. This is more of a wishful thinking, we obviously love each other and I'm afraid of being hurt and even though I want him to go enjoy himself I feel like eventually I'm going to feel some type of jealousy. I'm liking how much more time we have with each other. But I'm thinking if I should renegotiate things. If he expect to see me more and spend more nights together do I ask for more? I feel like it's a weird position..he might start thinking I'm only with him for his money, but in the end we still have an arrangement intact, married or not. He's also never been the real sugar daddy type. Multiple times since I've met him he had said he only took this route to meet someone cause he's married, if he wasn't he would be in a real relationship. So all of this have me wondering, where is this leading to. 

Shit went South

In the past couple days things with Mr.S have taken a huge turn.
Few days ago we went to a concert together. We had fun, drank, after not smoking weed for a week like he said he would he picked it up again. BTW I do believe he's addicted, he smokes about 3 or more times a day. He even say it's ruining him and he's barely off it and when he is he barely function right.
So after the concert, we hung out at my place and he left and went home. Around 4am I was up so I figured I'd send him a text. He texted back that things got really fucked up and a turn for the worse after he left my place. We texted he and there but he wasn't telling me what was happening. I was curious but a big part of me didn't want to know cause i didn't want to get involve. He told me he's in jail..so I thought a DUI, he said no. We barely talked the rest of the day until late night, when he started telling me he's going to have a lot more free time in his hands, and he's thinking of going away, maybe Seattle or FL. I told him to come over cuz I wanted to know WTF was up. He didn't have a place to stay either besides his office and told him he could spend the night. He looked like shit, he had just a duffle bag that he packed before the cops came for him. Apparently, when he got home, wifey was sitting at stairs waiting for him with a steak knife. Told him to get out or she'll slit his throat. He said he just wanted to sleep so he went pass her and went to his room. she followed him, in the room, exchanged more words, then she grabbed his phone and ran into a bathroom and locked the door. He had just sent me a sweet goodnight text so even though his phone was lock he wasn't sure if she knew the code. He overreacted, dude was high and drunk, broke down the door, and hit her. I'm still in shock he did. I've never had to deal with a guy who put their hands on a woman. First time he's ever done it, He said he doesn't remember how he hit her but her nose is broken. She was at the hospital, her brother is a cop, so eventually they came after Mr.S in the morning. She got a restraining order for 3 months, he's not allowed near the kids without supervision. not allowed in the house, next time he has a visit is on christmas for 2 hours. I told him he can stay over for a few days until he figure things out. He's picking up his clothes from the house today, sleeping here tonight but might head to FL tomorrow. He's going down there to work, do a health kick (healthy eating, work out) go through a cleansing process etc. He invited me, said we could both focus on work and I don't think it's a bad idea. It'd be good to have him by my side helping me with work I have to do with the site.
He's pretty sure they're not going to reconcile. He thinks they're heading for divorce, he spoke to a divorce lawyer while in jail, and he told him these kind of situations always end in divorce.
I don't want him to get divorce, I REALLY don't. But the reality is it might happen.
He's going to look up houses when he get back from FL and get it together.
I feel for the wife a lot and there are no excuses for what he did. She pressed charges and everything.
Shit's cray.

I'm not tryna leave you, believe me

Hello loves,

I can't believe it's already December, the time is going by so fast. This month is going to make it a year since I've been blogging. A whole year. I never thought I would get as many readers and advice, thanks for all of it and following me on my journey. It's been one hell of a ride so far and I'm grateful.

Tomorrow Mr.S is bringing over my christmas tree, which he kept in his office. We might go shopping for some decorations etc.
He's also giving me an early Christmas gift like last year. I hope it's something good. I kind of have ideas of what I might get from him, jewelry, gift cards, some cash, appliances, clothing. He got me a mix of all of that last year and I have a feeling it'll be similar.
I have not done any shopping yet but will start later this week. I also need to apply for my passport for my upcoming trip. Maybe once I have my passport I'll put it to use on misstravel.

I've kind of been contemplating this, but I'm thinking of deleting my blog..if not delete, I'll make it private and once I start writing again I'l make it public. I don't want the blog to follow me or anything else I plan to do in the near future. I'm also skeptical about Mr S finding it. With my online biz I'm developing I don't want it tracing back to this although this shouldn't come up in search engines but still. Better to be safe then sorry.

Rich non-exclusive extremely generous boyfriend for Christmas please.

I had a date last night from Match. I'm paying to use the site so figured I might as well take great advantage of it.
He's turning 36 in December. He's european, I'm talking the whole accent, style and everything. Originally from Spain, he's handsome, tall, talks a bit much, and an investment banker. We met for drinks, talked a lot, we have a lot in common and got a bit intimate halfway. He seem really romantic which I love. We had drinks then went back to his place, I wasn't too sure about that move but went anyways. We were holding hands and stuff. He lives in a nice apt, very modern like mine. He poured us some wine, sat down to talk some more and make out some more. I deff felt something for him. It got a little hot and heavy so I decided I should leave. He walked me out and we kissed goodnight.
My problem with him so far---He talk a lot, although he was interested in getting to know me but he seemed a bit really more into himself. He's an investment banker--he say he make his own hours which is awesome but he travels a good amount. Like today he flew to NYC and will be there for a few days. I think he's in NY every other week or something.
He sounds perfect since I'm not looking for anything serious but down the line if it get serious I'm wondering will he make time. I know his career is super important to him so idk. But I'd settle for a rich non exclusive boyfriend for now.
He texted me after I got home and said he want to see me again soon.  we'll see

After I got home, i texted Mr.S who was out in the city with his buddy. We were literally like 10 mns from each other lol. Me on a date and him smoking cigars and partying it up. He wanted to come see me before I went out but was too tired and I'd feel weird going on a date right after I just fucked my Sugar daddy. After I got home he came over but my drunk ass passed out. He kept calling my phone, no answer lol. He was outside my door- mind you he has a key he doesn't keep it on him. So this morning he came over, brought me coffee and breakfast. The sex was amazing! I didn't realize how much i missed him till I saw him. I was grinning like a little kid.
I told him the situation with my suppose bff and he said it doesn't like you guys are going to stay friends. So we're working towards being bff we talk to each other most than we talk to anyone else already.

I'm talking to a few more guys on Match. I need to set up dates.
I'm having such a lazy monday, I'm hungover and just want to crawl into a hole. I need to do so much work for my site but it's going to have to wait till tmrw. I need to drag myself to the gym to lose the extra weight I put on during turkey day.


xoxo