To be or not to be

So, I'm still in FL with Mr.S
It's not really a vacation..he's working a LOT and I don't mind it. Dude need to make money, and I'm not going to get in the way of that.
We exchanged Christmas gifts and I'm a very happy girl. He did a great job picking everything out.
He got me Gucci Guilty- smells amazingggg! Burberry shades, burberry umbrella, a christmas ornament made of pictures of me, tennis diamond bracelet, tiffany's diamond ring, a nice card with the warmest words, I'm in love.
I got him an expensive bottle of henny, Versace shirt, socks, burberry boxers, Hermes perfume and a card.

We have been playing house. We're staying at one of his clients 3 bedroom beach front apartment. It's sooooo beautiful, we both want to just live here lol.
Today he traveled to Miami and Naples, such a long drive from where we are. He left at 6am and not going to be back till late night. I'm missing him.
He gave me his credit card, I had a spa day. Hot stone massage, eyelash extensions, mani/pedi
I feel rejuvenated. I shopped for a victoria secret lingerie piece after to surprise him when he gets back, just a little thank you for pampering me like a princess.

We have been talking a lot and having heart to heart conversations.
I'm so confuse about things, he asked me to be his girlfriend.
Not in a way where he'd stop doing things for me, some guys would do that, but he wants to keep doing things for me and more but have a real relationship.
I feel like it's too soon, I haven't given him an answer. There's no doubt this man loves and adore me, but it's all a lot to take in.
I talked to my one friend who knows about him but she wasn't much help, showed little to no interest. I need sugar babies perspectives.
He knows I want a great life style, to be a power couple, have my own business and he has his. He has 4 kids, and he's talking about me meeting them after they're settled in.
I had to have this kind of talk with him so he knows my expectations, I want to get married in 2-3 years, not sure about kids- which is fine since he got enough for the both of us.
I've told myself the next relationship I get into will be the one to lead to marriage and never on my life did I think it would be with him. I feel like you my readers have followed my story for this past year, so if I'm going to make a huge mistake I want to get some insights and weigh out both options.

It's Official

This have been the weirdest/unassured week of my sugar experience. Mr.S is deff getting a divorce. They both have their lawyers drawing up documents and negotiating. He has been a great friend to me for the past 3 years so I didn't mind him staying at my place. He stayed over for 3 days, it was weird going to sleep with him every night and how sweet and very loving he is. I kept telling him it's all weird but he disagree, he said it's perfect. 

We haven't talked yet about what's going to happen with our arrangement. I have so many questions. He keep dropping hints about things that are making me wonder. 

So far, I know he's going to keep taking care of my needs. Wifey gets half of everything they have now which he say isn't much. Because of how he make his money or something, but bottom line is he's offering her a lot more than the maximum he's required to give her because he wants them to live comfortably- or is it guilt that he broke her nose hmmmm. 

He signed a lease on a new house, he's setting up a home office in the house (he only have 2 other employees), he's going to have 2 bedrooms for the kids. He's saying stuff about me sleeping over and his employees seeing me(I know one of his employees already- he writes my checks and pay my bills lol)..cooking for me..little stuff that we never did due to him being married. 

I feel like things are going to be different...he's going to be single and idk if there'll be another me or if he's going to date, those are all questions that we haven't address. 

He's in FL and I'm heading down there for the week, so we'll get a chance to talk a lot and figure things out. I don't think I want to fit in the girlfriend role, especially to a newly separated man, who have had multiple affairs etc..I would rather he go fuck whatever he wants to fuck and still be with me like we are. This is more of a wishful thinking, we obviously love each other and I'm afraid of being hurt and even though I want him to go enjoy himself I feel like eventually I'm going to feel some type of jealousy. I'm liking how much more time we have with each other. But I'm thinking if I should renegotiate things. If he expect to see me more and spend more nights together do I ask for more? I feel like it's a weird position..he might start thinking I'm only with him for his money, but in the end we still have an arrangement intact, married or not. He's also never been the real sugar daddy type. Multiple times since I've met him he had said he only took this route to meet someone cause he's married, if he wasn't he would be in a real relationship. So all of this have me wondering, where is this leading to. 

Shit went South

In the past couple days things with Mr.S have taken a huge turn.
Few days ago we went to a concert together. We had fun, drank, after not smoking weed for a week like he said he would he picked it up again. BTW I do believe he's addicted, he smokes about 3 or more times a day. He even say it's ruining him and he's barely off it and when he is he barely function right.
So after the concert, we hung out at my place and he left and went home. Around 4am I was up so I figured I'd send him a text. He texted back that things got really fucked up and a turn for the worse after he left my place. We texted he and there but he wasn't telling me what was happening. I was curious but a big part of me didn't want to know cause i didn't want to get involve. He told me he's in jail..so I thought a DUI, he said no. We barely talked the rest of the day until late night, when he started telling me he's going to have a lot more free time in his hands, and he's thinking of going away, maybe Seattle or FL. I told him to come over cuz I wanted to know WTF was up. He didn't have a place to stay either besides his office and told him he could spend the night. He looked like shit, he had just a duffle bag that he packed before the cops came for him. Apparently, when he got home, wifey was sitting at stairs waiting for him with a steak knife. Told him to get out or she'll slit his throat. He said he just wanted to sleep so he went pass her and went to his room. she followed him, in the room, exchanged more words, then she grabbed his phone and ran into a bathroom and locked the door. He had just sent me a sweet goodnight text so even though his phone was lock he wasn't sure if she knew the code. He overreacted, dude was high and drunk, broke down the door, and hit her. I'm still in shock he did. I've never had to deal with a guy who put their hands on a woman. First time he's ever done it, He said he doesn't remember how he hit her but her nose is broken. She was at the hospital, her brother is a cop, so eventually they came after Mr.S in the morning. She got a restraining order for 3 months, he's not allowed near the kids without supervision. not allowed in the house, next time he has a visit is on christmas for 2 hours. I told him he can stay over for a few days until he figure things out. He's picking up his clothes from the house today, sleeping here tonight but might head to FL tomorrow. He's going down there to work, do a health kick (healthy eating, work out) go through a cleansing process etc. He invited me, said we could both focus on work and I don't think it's a bad idea. It'd be good to have him by my side helping me with work I have to do with the site.
He's pretty sure they're not going to reconcile. He thinks they're heading for divorce, he spoke to a divorce lawyer while in jail, and he told him these kind of situations always end in divorce.
I don't want him to get divorce, I REALLY don't. But the reality is it might happen.
He's going to look up houses when he get back from FL and get it together.
I feel for the wife a lot and there are no excuses for what he did. She pressed charges and everything.
Shit's cray.

I'm not tryna leave you, believe me

Hello loves,

I can't believe it's already December, the time is going by so fast. This month is going to make it a year since I've been blogging. A whole year. I never thought I would get as many readers and advice, thanks for all of it and following me on my journey. It's been one hell of a ride so far and I'm grateful.

Tomorrow Mr.S is bringing over my christmas tree, which he kept in his office. We might go shopping for some decorations etc.
He's also giving me an early Christmas gift like last year. I hope it's something good. I kind of have ideas of what I might get from him, jewelry, gift cards, some cash, appliances, clothing. He got me a mix of all of that last year and I have a feeling it'll be similar.
I have not done any shopping yet but will start later this week. I also need to apply for my passport for my upcoming trip. Maybe once I have my passport I'll put it to use on misstravel.

I've kind of been contemplating this, but I'm thinking of deleting my blog..if not delete, I'll make it private and once I start writing again I'l make it public. I don't want the blog to follow me or anything else I plan to do in the near future. I'm also skeptical about Mr S finding it. With my online biz I'm developing I don't want it tracing back to this although this shouldn't come up in search engines but still. Better to be safe then sorry.

Rich non-exclusive extremely generous boyfriend for Christmas please.

I had a date last night from Match. I'm paying to use the site so figured I might as well take great advantage of it.
He's turning 36 in December. He's european, I'm talking the whole accent, style and everything. Originally from Spain, he's handsome, tall, talks a bit much, and an investment banker. We met for drinks, talked a lot, we have a lot in common and got a bit intimate halfway. He seem really romantic which I love. We had drinks then went back to his place, I wasn't too sure about that move but went anyways. We were holding hands and stuff. He lives in a nice apt, very modern like mine. He poured us some wine, sat down to talk some more and make out some more. I deff felt something for him. It got a little hot and heavy so I decided I should leave. He walked me out and we kissed goodnight.
My problem with him so far---He talk a lot, although he was interested in getting to know me but he seemed a bit really more into himself. He's an investment banker--he say he make his own hours which is awesome but he travels a good amount. Like today he flew to NYC and will be there for a few days. I think he's in NY every other week or something.
He sounds perfect since I'm not looking for anything serious but down the line if it get serious I'm wondering will he make time. I know his career is super important to him so idk. But I'd settle for a rich non exclusive boyfriend for now.
He texted me after I got home and said he want to see me again soon.  we'll see

After I got home, i texted Mr.S who was out in the city with his buddy. We were literally like 10 mns from each other lol. Me on a date and him smoking cigars and partying it up. He wanted to come see me before I went out but was too tired and I'd feel weird going on a date right after I just fucked my Sugar daddy. After I got home he came over but my drunk ass passed out. He kept calling my phone, no answer lol. He was outside my door- mind you he has a key he doesn't keep it on him. So this morning he came over, brought me coffee and breakfast. The sex was amazing! I didn't realize how much i missed him till I saw him. I was grinning like a little kid.
I told him the situation with my suppose bff and he said it doesn't like you guys are going to stay friends. So we're working towards being bff we talk to each other most than we talk to anyone else already.

I'm talking to a few more guys on Match. I need to set up dates.
I'm having such a lazy monday, I'm hungover and just want to crawl into a hole. I need to do so much work for my site but it's going to have to wait till tmrw. I need to drag myself to the gym to lose the extra weight I put on during turkey day.


xoxo

My Shopping Addiction

Ok, I don't have a shopping addiction..but I kind of like that show on Oxygen.
I've recently made a hard decision. Although I haven't act on it yet.
I've decide to sell some of my designer items..to be more specific..handbags and probably a pair of Loubs.
To be honest, the thought of selling them is killing me. I never thought I had such an emotional connection to them until just now. I was talking to my 4 yr old niece and told her what I was thinking and I got really tear eyed and my voice broke down a bit. yeah.
I recently lend my older brother a loan and I hate how much less is in my acct because I gave up some things to save a lot. With the holidays and wanting to pay off my school loans I figured I have to make this kind of sacrifice or get back in the sugar game.
I'm deff asking Mr.S for a raise on my allowance for the new year.
If I sell 3 of my bags..2 LV and one Gucci..Maybe I'll make about 5K from that which would about replace the money I loaned. The bags can always be replaced! I just need to keep telling myself that lol.
I've heard ebay is the place to sell..Anyone ever sold designer items online?
Some of the things I wanna sell are less than a yr old..might sell my duffle which is about a month old maybe I could just take that back to LV..I'll look into that.
I can't wait to head back to my place, I have so much to do these next 3 weeks before I have to head back down here for the holidays.
Hope everyone had a god turkey day :-)
I'm enjoying this time with the family very much..not so much with friends.
I don't have many girlfriends back home besides my bff who all of sudden have been cold and distant towards me. I've been seeing all of my guy friends but her. It was 4 of us bff since middle school, we lost one while in college, one got pregnant and practically have no life, then it was us 2 but she's been acting shady, cold and distant. I'm not sure if it's cause of where I am in my life...but I've always felt some kind of jealousy thing with her. Mind you I'm always picking up checks when we're out, everything I plan that involve her I don't ask her to pitch in bc I want to cover it. After I've told her about my business, she barely seemed interested, phone calls and texts stopped coming in and no answers from her. I asked her if she wants me to bring her weed for thanksgiving and she said yes but with an attitude. I don't smoke but Mr.S remember she does so he reminded me and gave me some for her (he's so thoughtful). I texted her thanksgiving day and said Happy TG day, no answer. It's shady cause she knows I'm here for 2 nights so whatever. I'm learning so much about friendships. My sis who recently got married also have some bad blood between two girls she was really close to. She has her life together at 25, married, great career, a new beautiful house and they've never visited after she's invited them multiple times and haven't answered her calls.
I'm very thankful for my close group of girlfriends from college. They've been happy for me and have always supported what I do. I'm having all of them at my place for a holiday dinner which I'm psyched about! I'm going to focus more on my friendship with them this new year coming up.
Alright I'm done venting lol. But honestly I'm really flabbergasted.



Xoxo

Gobble Gobble!

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

Regardless of where we all are in this thing we call life, we all have a lot to be thankful for :-)
Give thanks and appreciate what you have.

Spending this much needed time with la familia
I'm very excited to head back to my place next week, work off those pounds I'm going to put on today.
Ladies, let's be smart about our eating, don't over indulge ! lol You'll feel completely awful after.
Mr.S and I going shopping for Christmas deco and such when I get back. We're putting my tree up and I'm excited! we might hire someone to put up the lights.
I have a lot to look forward to but I'm keeping in mind "No expectations, No disappointment"

Sent From Heaven

Mr.S and I spent a great day together. The weather was nice and we decided on going hiking...but we never made it out of my apt. He was all set, with his backpack, brought a bottle of wine, picked up some fruit, and was going to grab a blanket from my place but we ended up not going. We stayed in my place, boozed (now that I'm slowly drink again), watched the new episode of Homeland (we're both committed to this show, it's our 'thing') and sexed it up. It was fun, relaxing, much needed, I orgasmed over and over again cause he took awhile to cum. I didn't mind it. Great workout, I felt refreshed lol. We took a bath and I had my iPad playing on a Pandora station. Sent from Heaven by Keisha Cole came on. I was laying on him in the bath hugged up with the song playing. I didn't think he was listening to it but as soon as he left my place he texted me 'You were sent from heaven'.

How sweet- I did not think he was listening to the music, I know he's not much of the RnB type.

                         

He wants to head to a ski resort in Vermont to ski and spend some time away before Christmas. My only problem is we have been doing a trip every year in January the past few years and I want to keep that going. So we talked about going to Bermuda for a week in January! I'm psyched! It's either Bermuda or Bahamas..I'm leaning towards Bermuda more. I'm not sure if I'm going to have to choose between the Vermont trip or Bermuda but I'd deff prefer warm weather and continue our tradition. Few years ago, we spent a week in FL..unfortunately it was also the week his mom was on her death bed. We ended up staying shorter than plan but it was still an amazing trip. This year was Vegas- best trip of my life. Total Princess experience, spoiled me rotten. This year coming up Bermuda or Bahamas! The shopping is usually a big part of my trips lol..yess I was checking places to shop in both vacation spots. I mean shopping shopping not souvenir shits lol. But I'll settle with just going away instead of this cold weather. Keeping my fingers crossed for BOTH trips.

On my last blog I was super excited for Christmas..until I figured how much I'm going to be spending on gifts. My sisters need to stop popping out babies lol. Too many nieces and nephews. 

On thursday we might have a sleep over so I'm going to try to get him to go to the casino, he always give me money to gamble, and even when I lose he give me what he wins.
I have a great idea for our 3yr anniversary, I have a gift in mind that I know he'd enjoyed but it depends on how I feel. It depends on happy he makes me for the holiday season.

Here are some of the lyrics to Keisha Cole- Sent from heaven

Now you can wait your whole life wondering
When it's gonna come or where it's been.
You may have got your heart broken
A few times in the past
Never last strong as it used to,
Don't feel as good as it used to (before)
And all the things you used to say,
Things you used to do, went right out the door

Oh no more, will you be the one
That's what you tell everyone around you
But you know they've heard it all before
What more can you say
When love won't let you, walk away
And you can't help who you love
And you find yourself giving it away
When you think you're in love

[CHORUS:]
I wanna be the one who you believe
In your heart is sent from (sent from heaven)
There's a piece of me who leaves when you gone
Because you're sent from (sent from heaven)
I wanna be the one who you believe
In your heart is sent from (sent from heaven)
There's a piece of me who leaves when you gone
Because you're sent from (sent from heaven)

www.mytrophygirlfriend.com 

Holla

I should really change the title of my blog because I feel like I have a full time job.
If i'm not with Mr.S I'm on my computer working. I kind of like it. I feel like I have a regular job and Mr.S is my getaway from work when I'm with him, which is a few times during the week; we do fun things so it's all good. My site is going ok, we are trying different marketing techniques without spending money yet. Starting locally seem to make a lot more sense, so we're doing that and also reaching out to the Tri state area. It definitely already feel like a lot of work but I like it, it's a great learning process and I feel such a drive to succeed. Mr.S has a lot going on with his own business, so he hasn't been in 100% in since we launched. It's a busy time for him with the holidays coming up.
Speaking of holidaysssss...I'm so psyched for Christmas! I had the best Christmas last year with him..this year I'm going to let him give me whatever he want and not ask for anything..ok I'm not completely sure yet if I want to do that lol but I want to see how well he can do.
Then there's my bday, and our 3 year anniversary and Vday ! I am head over heels in love with these next few months coming up. I love the Holidays!

I feel like I'm slowly discovering a different world of sugar..as far as networking
I love blogger and don't have any intent on leaving..There's Tumblr..I abandoned my Twitter..And my FB..Instagram..
It's all so much to deal with! They need to stop coming out with social networking things.
For every social networking device I have my real life, my sugar life, and now I have my website to handle like WTf o_o
I'm like a walking gadget.

On a good note I think Mr.S might get me the Mini iPad for Christmas...well he asked me if I wanted it, and I changed the subject..I'm not sure I want it. I don't EVER use my iPad anymore, it's literally just there unless I'm traveling, he said the same thing about his.


I want to thank all who have visited my site, I don't see many outside profiles. Even though we're in the Tri state area, I still would appreciate it if you all would create a profile. Don't wait until our database gets bigger because we're not charging now and those whose sign up now will have free access.
Gosh I sound like an infomercial haha
www.MyTrophyGirlfriend.com

Trophy Girlfriend

Hi loves!!

I have been so busy. My stressed level was very high but thank God for the gym. A good work out calms me down. A few months ago I would just order a large pizza and eat my stress away but now I'm better with controlling that.

On a good note, My website is up!!!! Aaaaghhh!!!! I'm psyched, scared, nervous, anxious, and so much more. I'm mostly nervous. I feel like my site in an inbetweener with Sugar dating and normal dating. I'll explain more.
BUT the website is up!! I'm not charging for it everyone get on it and sign up, it's 100% FREE!!! FOR NOW..Spread the word! We are marketing/advertising and building a great database. I promise there WILL be a lot more members, but we have to start somewhere. So please, get on it and sign up, let your friends know and my followers, please, do criticize me lol. Let me know what you think, I want some feedback.

A little intro:
         I've always wanted to be a 'Trophy Girlfriend'...a trophy girlfriend doesn't necessarily relates to a sugar baby. I had an ex boyfriend who considered me his trophy girlfriend. He wasn't old, or rich. He was around my age and he took pride on being with me because of my intelligence, beauty and confidence.
The term or the idea of a trophy girlfriend also have many stereotypes that comes with it. We're not all bimbos, and gold diggers. People are always so quick to judge. I wanted to create a site that's aimed towards we women who have dreams to accomplish and who are driven by success. We want a man by our side who have the same drive and want to see us succeed. I feel being a Trophy Girlfriend is a step up from a sugar baby. There will come a point in time where we want to find a guy to date who is accomplished but not necessarily an SD but understands the concept. I didn't want to completely rule out the idea of a sugar baby so I did include 'mutually beneficial relationship' as one of the options of the site. Maybe you will meet an SD or you might meet the guy to make you his Trophy Girlfriend then upgrade you to his Trophy Wife- Wouldn't that be lovely? :-)

Like I said, I'm excited and nervous lol.  I'm hoping we do well in the States so I can take it international. I'm not forgetting about my international followers :-)
Soooo check out mytrophygirlfriend .com
give me some feedback, Make a profile, it's easy as 1-2-3. The site is Very user friendly.
Check it out!!! Thanks!

Tuesday Funday

Mr.S and I had plans to see each other today. He texted me in the morning about how he feel lost..in my head I'm thinking WTF I'm not up for this. He clarified it has nothing to do with us but it's about work. I guess work isn't going so well, I didn't ask him for the specifics but probably will later this week. I expressed a little bit of concern and said "That's sucky"- which I think is enough lol. He handles everything for me so I need him to know if the money aint coming in then something will change. He texted "you're great to look forward to"- Soon as I saw it I thought ohhhh craaaap, so much for having a relaxing day, I actually have to put in some extra work and give him a little pick me up.
I mean that's in our book right? When our SD is having a bad week, I think we should always put in a little extra work. As creative as I am..Not..

I went through my lingerie drawers, found a super cute corset he bought be this summer but I have not worn yet...I wore it without the belt as shown in the pics. It also came with a cute pair of boy short lace panties. Man did I look hot once I had it together with my heels on, hair and make up done. I made a bubble bath, light up the bathroom with candle- it was so cute. His favorite dessert is Rice krispies treats- thank God/ so easy to make. I had all the ingredients and made it for him. I told him to bring over lunch, a bottle, and some weed.
I opened the door in my lingerie, we embraced, 10 secs later he said his day just got sooo much better. Instead of him mauling me lol I played a dominant role, got him in my bedroom...let's just say we got a bit kinky haha. After sex, we ate lunch together and talked, we took a bath (more sex), went back to bed/ cuddled/sex/tv until he got the cue that I wanted him out. I took him away from his problems for a bit, gave him a little motivation, he left a happy man with a huge zip lock bag full of rice krispies.

Me No Tech-Savvy

Hey lovers!

So I've received a few emails about not being able to Follow the blog because...there's no Follow Me button!!! lol. I know there's the regular Follow..and there's Following with Google Friend...
Maybe it's because of the Dynamic layout I have...I think I've ran into the same problem in other blogs I've visited.
SO...last night I tried finding a way to get a Follow me link in the blog and no success. I felt all techy and went into areas I didn't know existed in blogger and all that good stuff.
If anyone have any idea how to get around that, please email/write and let me know...Other wise I might switch up the layout, once again.

Xoxo

Transitioning from Sugar

I'm slowly and surely missing being out in the Sugar search. Maybe if I had 2 SD's I wouldn't miss it so much..hmmm let me stop lol. I've realized how hard it is and will be when you have to make the transition from Sugar dating to regular dating. Sugar daddies can sometime set the bar SO high that it's impossible to find someone to meet up to your standards. Of course I want a man who's successful, handsome (in the sense that I'm attracted to him), caring, honest, generous, and able to provide stability plus more. In a nutshell I want a man with all the sugar daddy characteristics without being a sugar daddy...does that make sense?? And I'm not using the term "without being a sugar daddy" loosely. I've heard stories about sugar babies who have ben engaged to their guy, or been married, or in situations where he left the wife to be with them...it might all seem like a fairy tale..but sometime you might just be fooling yourself...but we also have the exception to the rules.

When you're dating a guy, how do you determine his wealth? I know many women goes by what kind of watch he wear, living arrangements, clothing etc..but every guy is different. For me it has to be a combination of everything. He doesn't have to own 2 houses, as long as he has a nice enough place..He doesn't need to have 3 Rolex, he might not be a big watch guy..but he has to wear quality clothes- not talking high end but quality. The places a guy takes you on dates also tell a bit about him..I'm not expecting a 5 star experience every time but if you're taking me to your local pizza or Italian place all the time..EH. And he has to show some kind of generosity towards me. This is a really hard one because now a day not many men practice this. Sure they might be trying to make sure that she's in for the right reason but if after a few months she's still around and head over heels for you, dude, she not going nowhere so show your freaking appreciation.

This is what kind of happened between myself and the Cardiologist. He's a really nice guy, 47, not bad looking, a little boring haha but I work with it, alone, never been married, no kids, parents are praying for him everyday that he meet someone lol. I've never been sure about him and he has somehow fell in the friend zone. We've had some great dinners and conversations. Went shopping once cause I wanted to give him a slight makeover, he offered to buy me something, it was weird. He has always admired everything about me, from omg nice shoes and bags to jewelry and asking me if they were gift to me blah blah blah. If you're so concern about who's giving me what..maybe you should make a move and give me something...I never told him that but probably should have lol. He doesn't initiate anything and I was always on the fence about sleeping with him in case he's only trying to bed a 20 something. Long story short..we've been seeing each other for close to 1yr now and it's just been that. He's in the friend zone and I'm not sure if he'll get out of it. I want a man to serenade me, especially if they're older..they're suppose to be great at that stuff. I take precaution with older men because you can never be sure if they're just trying to bed you. Compared to if I'm dating someone a bit around my age where it's who cares, you come a dime a dozen.

NYC

I'm feeling very happy. Things are looking up, and my relationships are getting back on track. Mr.S and I spent a day in NYC. We had tickets to a Jay-Z concert in Brooklyn. It was perfect. We took the train together, talked business, flirted the whole time and was extra lovey dovey (we always are lol). Stayed at a nice hotel, took me shopping on 5th ave and Madison ave. We went to Saks, I got a Chanel Perfume- Chance, he helped me chose it. We went to LV, I got the exact duffle bag I wanted. It's being shipped to me will arrive on Monday, I'm so psyched! Even though I can't travel with it when visiting my fam because it will deff raise questions. He got himself a new LV wallet. He was so excited about it that he switched wallets right there and then. I got this new leather jacket for the fall, the sale guy who was helping me knew my style too well. He found the perfect jacket for me, a few other ones he showed me were quite pricey- about $1600..I didn't look at the price tags till I saw Mr.S either looking at it or maybe the brand/size.. but hey it's Saks. The one I loved turned out to be about 900, which was perfect. I wanted to get some shoes but we were running out of time, plus he had spent enough on me for a day. I admired some Chanel bags just to give him some ideas for the upcoming holiday. I had left my hair straightener at home, so he got me a new one- so sweet.The concert was awesome! We went to 48 lounge after, it was dead in there. After getting some apps and drinks there, we went to Cheetahs- it was ok. Deep down I didn't want him to get a lap dance which he didn't. I used to like going to trip clubs with him but my jealousy is at a different level now, I don't want any girls dancing on him. We had  drink and left, and called it a night.

Walking in NYC we had so many eyes on us. He kept mentioning every time a guy checked me out which was a whole lot. Guys were breaking their neck looking, I'm not tooting my own horn but I wasn't dress over the top. I had a really cute bleu navy dress with brown belt, with some cute black boots. When heading back, before getting on the train we stopped at Dunkin's. I was waiting by the exit and this gentleman dressed in a suit with suitcases was checking me out hardcore. We exchanged a few glances and smile, he was really handsome. I felt like he wanted to come over to me and talk but was being a bit shy. I tried checking to see if he had a wedding ring on but it was kind if hard to see. I kept hoping if he come over he'd do it fast before Mr.S comes out. He didn't have the guts and Mr.S came out. oh well.

My site is almost ready. We're tightening it up more. I'd rather spend as much time working to make it perfect than rush the project. Mr.S and I plan on signing contracts on Monday...although I'm waiting to hear back from my ex SD. He's been helping me with the legals and I don't really want to just sign everything without getting an ok from him. He's taking so long to respond to me so we'll see. Mr.S is beginning to be more mentoring. He mentioned now that everything is coming together he's going to boss me around a little and push me toward success!-which I'm 100% ok with. He's giving me some business books he read that I should too. I have a good feeling with how things are going so far and I'm loving being spoiled!

Love, Lust and everything in between

I literally just got off the phone with eHarmony to get a refund. I expected the site to be a little different, well to at least give me the option to do my own search instead of sending me matches from Canada and men who are in the early 20's when I specifically set my profile for something different. I'm not going to bash it but maybe down the line I'll try it again. I was so happy I cancelled just in time and got a full refund back! The telemarketer tried selling me more months to stay on there but I had my mind set to get my money back. GeorginaSB I'm so happy it's working for you, lucky woman! It wasn't doing it for me. With winter coming, my head keep thinking it's "cuffing season". I would love to have a guy near me who can sleep over and cuddle up with during the cold winter nights..but gosh I'm so picky..and a bit hung up on Mr.S

Mr.S finally realized that the past 2 months we've had a case of the "blahs". I knew it but didn't bring it up cause I was focused on other things and if he wanted to make plans to do more with me he would. So supposedly he wants to get us back to our old self. Yesterday he proposed an impromptu trip to the city, to shop and have dinner. It changed into going to a cigar shop and dinner. I love the cigar shop- always good looking men in there and I have fun with him smoking it up. I kind of wanted to go shopping but he postponed it for next time...waaahhh.
I've joined Misstravel..have anyone have any luck on there?? I joined not because I'm looking for an SD, but traveling is one of my passions. I have the time and if I get some really good trip offers I'm up for it. I wouldn't mind a long distance non-committal relationship with someone that I get to travel with.
I'm turning 24 in February, I'm dreading it already!!! My sis that recently got married was 25...So I NEED to have a love interest sometime after my birthday, nothing serious but something.

All or Nothing

Hello my lovelies ;)

I hope the sugar world is treating everyone well.
I've been away but haven't been up to much besides working, dieting, and other shenanigans.
I'm still with My main guy..although things seem blah lately. I live for adventure, last time we went away together was over a month ago...and since then we also haven't spend a night together aside from seeing each other during the day. I'd rather we have some great plans like a concert/ game.. something worth it.
I've been feeling stressed with friends, and everything else going on. But, nothing to hold me down.
Giving up the sugar search is one of the best decisions I've made, I'm budgeting a lot better, and the time I used to spend on those sites I'm using towards better things. Even when Mr.S and I get into a mini fit, looking for someone else on the side isn't the first thing that comes to mind.

I've recently joined collar me.com NOT because I'm looking for an SD lol..I thought Mr.S would be on there since he's a sub. There's a profile that seems like it might be him but it hasn't been active for 2 months. A part of me really wants to experience the Dom/sub field. I used to with Mr.S in the past and I learned so much and did a lot and wanted to take it further. But me and him had a few minor bumps in our arrangement when it came to allowance/gift..And as much as I wanted to practice D/s with him, he didn't seem he was wiling to add on anything extra to my lifestyle. I know Doms get tributes for their work, and the funny thing is I didn't ask him to up my allowance or anything. Just thought we would have an understanding since i'm going out of my element and outside of an arrangement we've had for 2 yrs to please you in other ways you like, I'm expecting if I need something outside from what you already provide it won't be a problem..but nooo. After he made a big deal about something that happened in April, since then it's been back to normal vanilla sex. You can't expect me to provide you with extra if you're telling me "I didn't sign up for these extras" when it comes to buying me something I want once in awhile. And gosh being a dom is hella work lmfao. I mean I love it because you are totally cared for and attended to. But it's still work. Mr.S also seem to never be able to please me other ways a sub should. If I proclaim a "me" day and send you a list of what that day enlist, you, as my sub should be able to take care of everything on the list. I think he's only in for the bedroom part of it..it's all or nothing babe. I intentionally tease him on text, I would send him wild and sexy dom/sub scenarios lol and get him all hot. I feel like when he's at my place he's secretly hoping I pull out my whips/chains and collar haha, it's too funny messing with him.

I'm going to post more and although I've never used my blog to give advice..I think it's a good idea to spread some of my wisdom (jk) but really..I appreciate all the emails I get and If anyone have any topics they want me to cover, please let me know.
Xoxo

The Blues

For the past week and half I've been on the Dukan diet..this will be the last diet that I follow unless it's weight watchers or one of those where you're provided with the food you need. I HATE cooking. This diet had me cooking and I did not like it. I'm at a good weight but want to shed an extra 5 pounds...I'm not sure if i'm going to continue with it because my body is not accepting it well...or maybe i'm just depressed. Today I felt like I was having an anxiety attack..an out of body experience..have anyone felt that way before? I was really freaked. I've been hanging out in my apt a bit too much lately and have just been bumming watching movies but it help with keeping up with my diet. When I'm out I tend to eat and drink too much. I think it's also making me a bit depress..my experience this morning was weird. then I started over thinking and felt high and 'not there'. I started breaking down a little and took my ass to Starbucks to do some work and blog.

On a better note..Mr.S have been back from vacation, he went off at me since I didn't give him my undivided attention during his time away. Ignoring him ruined his time away..I know wtf. Saw him yesterday, and we went at it. I was so horny, this is the longest I've been without sex for awhile. Sad, but i played it over and over again in my head of how it would happen when we see each other. I hate doing that because I usually end up a bit disappointed since I put my expectations so high. The first round started good, the kissing was breathtaking. He had his tongue all the way down my throat and I couldn't help but wrap my legs around him. When the sex part came, it wasn't all that amazing with him on top so I switched up and got on top. It felt better but not great. The second round was so so. The third round was what I was waiting for this whole time. He fucked me real good, and then made love to me. He whispered how much he missed me and a lot of sweet stuff, he even had me screaming his name- that good. For some reason right after that I was wanting more. I'm not sure if he had it in him to go for a 4th round..I wasn't sure I wanted to give him a 4th round either. I figured I'm seeing him in a few days so it can wait till then.

I haven't seen Mr. Cardiologist for over a week but might this weekend...I've realized I literally can't keep a man in my life. I chase everyone away. I keep them for a month or less and then they're gone. I always find something wrong with them or they don't exactly meet my standards. I need to get back on the dating scene. Not sure I want to pay for eHarmony yet but I do have a profile for when I'm ready for that serious boyfriend. I think I will try the free dating websites and get a few hook ups..or not.
This dude I met on one of those sites had a few dates with me during LAST winter, and he randomly texted me about 'i like your new FB pic' - we're friends on FB. He totally stopped talking to me which I suspect is because I didn't put out on our second date. I was the last one to text him before we stopped talking...I asked him why didn't he text me back 5 months ago and his excuse was he didn't get the text.. Fuck Off! I said nothing else to him. I thought he was hot and was going to put out on the 3rd date but noooo he couldn't wait lol. Pig.

I need something to live me up a little. I think I miss the hunt for sugar. Not sure, but deff missing something. I need to get lost in a good book, any recommendations?
I'm going to finish up this week, get rid of the negativity that's taking over me, and re-evaluate my future plans.. I'm going to blog more, and change up my page a little. A lot more coming my babies stay tune.

Out of sight, Out of mind

I had a semi ok weekend away with my young engineer man. I think that was the last I'll be seeing of him. It was a weird and awkward weekend. First off, he said he was having his friends over- which was going to be a bunch of boys and one other chick cause that's one of their girlfriends, so I thought hey why not! I love being around boys, drinking and hanging all day. It turns out everyone else bailed and he didn't have the courtesy to tell me. We had a conversation about how he doesn't want me to feel awkward or bored so I should bring a friend, I reminded him I'd be fine around everyone. Everyone turned out to be one other couple...It was a fucking couples weekend...I don't do those. I haven't had a boyfriend for the longest time and I felt like it was a set up, and what if I did bring a friend it would be even more awkward. I tried making the best out of it but I couldn't help but notice some things about his personality...I can understand when a man doesn't like being affectionate with a woman in front of others, or they don't like PDA...but we were in a lake house sometimes his friends were around us and sometimes they weren't. He barely paid me any attention...barely talked to me, looked at me unless he had to..I felt like a fly on the wall around him and it made me awkward being there. Even his friends kind of notice so they were the ones talking to me most. Not even my SD treats me that way- ever. When it came time to go to bed, we slept on the same bed. He tried making a move on me pulling me on to him, I slowly moved his hands and said--goonight. I was horny and was hoping to get some but i'm not giving it up to-I don't wanna say asshole- but to someone like him. I wasn't sure I liked him that way, but this weekend really helped with my decision. We haven't gotten in touch since we left on sunday..I hope we never do.

Before Mr.S left for family vacation on Friday I had a to do list of things I needed and he was to take me shopping. He fucked that up. I gave him an early notice, told him which mall I didn't want to go to (I live very close to one and have a few friends who work there) so I told him any other mall is fine.  He brought me to this outside shopping place which barely have anything..when I gave him a list of what I wanted. I was furious. Lately he seem to not be able to do anything right. On my list I had a new software for my Mac, New sneakers (left my one pair at the hotel when we went away together), and a nice duffle bag (I'm eyeing an LV one). We ended up walking around store to store with no result, only item we got was the software. Told him I'll just get everything else myself. When you do something nice, you get rewarded...This was going to be a double reward since he was going away. I had something sexy plan for us when we get back but that was a done deal. I just wanted to fuck him and kick him out. Which I did. I don't remember even kissing him, a few pecks...clothes off..I get on top and ride..hard..before you know it he was done lol. I gave him a 2mn cuddle then he was out the door. I texted him if he had a time restraint he should have told me before (since we couldn't go to a decent mall which were less than 40mns away). His excuse was he's sorry, he felt off all day etc..
I think he's been feeling guilty..He's texting me all the time while away, I barely respond or keep a conversation going unless it's about business. He randomly texted me at 8am..Out of Sight out of Mind..which escalated into something so stupid. Umm You reap what you sow. Men can be so dumb, you give them all the attention they could ever need and barely appreciate it...when you don't pay much attention to them their world start crumbling, it's hilarious. I told him Absence makes the heart grow fonder lmfao..I wish he would stop worrying about me and enjoy his time with his wife and kids.

Lies & Alibis

Hey sugar lovers,
I hate not keeping up with my blog. I've also realized a lot of bloggers haven't been updating lately, I wish I had more stories to read when I log in. Anywho, things have been going alright with me so far. Just keep running into obstacles with Mr.S..we don't only have a personal relationship right now, we're getting into business together and man so many times I've wondered am I doing the right thing and is it worth it.

We haven't signed a contract yet but we've come to a term sheet agreement. I have about 67% ownership, and he has the rest. Although we will be splitting the economics 50/50 which I'm ok with it after going over some things with him. We have had a lot of disagreements but I figured we were both negotiating with each other and when it comes to that part of business you don't see the person as friend/family you're just someone trying to get yours. All the talks of this and that deff made my libido non existent. Every sugar babe out there is a hustler, or else we wouldn't have the backbone to do this kind of relationship. I'm still not 100% sure if I'm making the right choice with him but I'm hoping this would bring us closer and cut out some of the very stooooopid fights we have.
About what I'm doing: It's an online dating site but it's different from what's out there right now. I'm hoping I can make some profit from this and save up for Grad school. I like the idea because it's something small that I can do from home and on my free time. It's a lot of work starting up but it's low cost and I'm sure the hardest part is the beginning. I feel very secured that Mr.S is behind me on it because he knows what he's doing and can take it to a level I probably couldn't.

As I mentioned before, I deleted all my sugar profiles..Hooray!! and for real for real lol. I want to focus on what I'm doing. I feel like I'm working two jobs...Mr.S...the business..and putting time in for friends/family and the guys I'm dating it's so hard but worth it.
I confronted Mr.s about his online profile and messaging SBs. It was the funniest thing. I have him wrapped around my fingers right now. I ignored the whole thing for a week. Recently, we had a beach day, talked about business and figured I do want to do this with him..but before I decide I wanted to see if he was lying to me.
My thing is..we had a blowout the week before on a thursday. Then he came over early friday and we made up. He accidentally messaged my fake SB profile friday morning-before making up with me. So, I thought, if he stop messaging my profile I'll take it as a sign he's stopping his search. But this dude carried the conversation on saturday and sunday. He stopped messaging back so I sent him a message to see whats up, and he never replied. I figured ok maybe he stopped...Until I went through his phone and found out that he was interested in meeting with one SB.... But he stopped texting her back on saturday...so technically he stopped showing interest BUT I wanted to make him pay for it anyways, and I felt hurt. So when I told him that he messaged a profile I had up and knows everything he said to her.. he was speechless. Crickets. He was so off and had nothing to say. I made a big deal out of it even when I knew he gave up his search etc,, but I felt hurt. Then he came clean that over the years he has met up with a few SB's when he thought things were over or coming to an end. I denied ever meeting anyone and would never hurt him this way-this is all a game. Bottom line he said none of them compared to me blah blah blah. Did he sleep with any of them? A little part of me think so..he probably met some fake wanna be SB's who gave it up to him for cheap although he denied it. Trust is a little off with us right now...but I'm sure we'll get back to our sweet spot. He admits to being a jackass and a jerk.  He's been a good boy lately. I'm getting back to spending his money- which is what's really important.

I've mentioned the young engineer I've been dating- he's 29 and really cute. We've gone in 3 dates so far and made out once. No sex yet- although I've kind of been planning around it. He randomly invited me to his parents lake house. Him and his friends are going up there for the weekend and I'm guessing his parents won't be there..or else that'd be weird. I think he might be moving a little fast. I mean, he's already introducing me to his friends and going away for a whole weekend together...Last thing I want to get into is in a relationship. He's nice and really cute, so he can be a little play toy. He has good taste in food though, he has taken me to fine dining establishments and I did not expect that from him.
I'm still seeing the cardiologist- it's weird. I see him more as a friend but after our dates, we kind of making out a little- not tongue or anything like that. Yet I feel no spark..maybe I should let him know and keep him as a friend.
I've been in contact with my ex SD. He's a very successful business man and wanted his advice on things. He's been amazing. Last time I saw him, he was in Boston for a business trip. We talked on the phone for an hour recently, mostly about my business and some personal things. He told me to send him any documents i have to sign before doing so. He's been really helpful. He might have to come to Boston more due to the business deal he's investing in right now. I would be sooooooo happy if he does. He would be my getaway SD. He's very generous. He has a girlfriend SB back in NY. She's living with him etc..although it's an open relationship. If I can see him more than once a month, I would deff strike up an arrangement with him.

Mr.S goes away in vacation with the fam for a WHOLE week next week..I can't say I'm going to miss him and excited to have a week without him. Cheers!

Catching up!

Hi lovers!- Quick post
I felt like I've abandoned you guys. I'm sorry just literally been really busy.

From meeting an amazing guy I've been hanging out with/dating..he's 29 not a sugar date but he's so cute and works in engineering. not rich but he's good for the time being haha.

Also starting a business...which Mr.S thinks is a Brilliant idea.

Things have been going ok with him...except...I've recently told him that I've deleted all my online profiles and adding all my eggs in one basket. I have a fake online profile that I've used to spy on him (that's still up), which I messaged him from before but he didn't respond..which was a good sign...that was a few months ago.
But NOW, he has this other profile everything on it is fake..i.e age/location/job etc..He messaged the fake profile I have and started talking to her..aka...ME. lol
I'm trying to get info on what he thinks about our relationship..so far he's only said it's complicated. And haven't been responding back.. I feel like he knows it's me..but then again he might not. I have told him a million times please if you want other girls..indulge!! I just don't like being lied to. But we'll see...I'll keep you guys updated on that.

My business idea is kind of taking off. EXCEPT...Mr.S and I are having some disagreements. It's MY idea, and my business. He wants to own 50% of it....WTF????- What he's investing isn't much.
He said he would take care of all the finances to start up..which mind you isn't much and under 10K, and control the finances of the company as a whole, investing ect...
He's trying so hard to make me believe why he should own 50% and knowing how to handle start ups and succeed at it..
I don't want to be arrogant but I want something for myself, not something that I'm a partner of... he has his own business, fuck off mine. I feel like if he asked for 20-30 % I would be hey that seems fair. I'd even let him have 40-45 because he's investing and putting in some work.
Supposedly he said he's ok being just the guy I bounce ideas off of...but I don't think he would be happy with it, he will maybe resent me for it. I'm leaning towards negotiating what he can owe or not owing nothing at all and just be in the background. But he also said if I can't do the deal with him and I choose someone else (I have 3 other potentials) then our friendship is over, arrangement is over etc. I feel he's being so controlling because he wants to "get richer and make me rich"
I could use some advice..but I know that I'm 100% sure I won't hand him 50% ownership. I did my homework and it makes no sense. I have a vision and know where I want it to head. He's trying so hard to convince me...how he has connection...who he can hire to help..have the company going in about 2 weeks...I feel he has so much plan already without me. Giving him part half ownership will silence me out a bit and I don't want it. We have a meeting tomorrow and I'm a bit nervous- I think he means well, but from his words and everything else I can feel some kind of greed. He's already rich, wife and kids set for life- but yet he wants a huge chunk of something I want to work on for myself. Sad that I'm already thinking of ways to buy him out if we do succeed. I don't want the ties to him forever. The reaction he gave me tonight via text really made me think twice about his character. He's willing to end close to a 3 yr friendship/arrangement, over the fact that I have a small business idea that he may or may not be a part of.

Nobody said it was easy, No one ever said it would be this hard...

Coldplay!
Mr.S and I spent the day in Boston yesterday. Went in the city early, had lunch at a nice French place. food was amazing, I swear they have the best restaurants. After lunch I propose the idea we go to a cigar shop. I've been to one with him in Vegas, it was relaxing and fun. We went to one in the city, it was nice. We smoked, had some champagne, cuddled on a couch and watch the Olympics. I loved it! All the guys were starring at us, I bet he felt cool about it. We met this guy there, he def looked like SD material, he's older and just retired from his own business. Mr.S told me the richest man he met in his life was at that cigar shop. Hello!! Lol, this needs to be my hang out spot. We went on a duck tour, it was fun and very educating. After we went back to our hotel and ordered room service while getting ready for the Coldplay concert. The concert was so much fun. Best one I've been to. they put on a very good show. After we went to the hotel bar and had a few drinks and appetizers. It was crowded, a lot of people come to the W hotel bar cause it's very chic. I love waking up next to him, he cuddles up on me all night when sleeping lol.

This coming weekend is our trip to the Cape, He booked a cottage and this very beautiful hotel by the water. I'm very excited to go. The bathrooms comes with a French tub and I was sold! Will be spending much needed time in there.

Bedazzled!

Mr.S have once again sweep me off my feet. After an argument with a significant other, ever feel like it's a whole different relationship? Different good, as in awesome, as in gosh I'm so lucky to be with this person. I've had that with a lot of ex bf's but after an argument Mr.S just goes above and beyond to make me feel special. Yesterday we spent all day together, just cuddling and talking. We shared, and talked a lot about our relationship. acknowledging  we both need to change some things. Every time we have an augment it's always so intense and the aftermath is sometimes worth it. He wants me to keep the earrings cause he said they costed a lot...I want to see how much they cost..how do I do about doing that? But he also offered to have them exchanged if I really wanted to.

After spending the day together, we spent the whole afternoon and night texting. He messaged me early this morning saying he would be passing through my neighborhood if he could stop by to say hi. I made the time to see him and he showed up with a big bouquet of red roses. My favorite. He didn't have much time to spend, we discussed a weekend trip we're planning together in 2 weeks. First weekend I'm ever spending with him. Wifey and an aunt are taking the kiddos away. He wants to go to Nantucket beach and obviously fly there, so I'm psyched. But if not we might just to Berkshire or the Cape. We mostly just made out a whole lot and cuddled till he had to leave.
I'm also looking forward to a Coldplay concert with him this coming Monday..this is historic for us because we made plans to go to this concert last summer...we always had doubts whether we would make it to the concert and it's crazy that all of this happened right before.
This is going to make it 2 1/2 yrs, soooo I sent him a pantygram !!! It's pretty cool, if any of you have a bf/sd who you're able to send it to you should. It's a website that offers panty grams. They mail your guy a cute pair of red thong, it's really sex. There's a message that comes with the package, then they go online and are given a code to see the rest of the message. He's receiving it next thursday, the day before our weekend getaway so I'm pretty psyched!

I mentioned a pot I was talking to who agreed to my allowance and we were suppose to be meeting this week, BUT, he emailed me and said his best friend and colleague has ovarial cancer. She's suppose to be having surgery this thursday...and he has to put things on hold. I want to believe this is all true, he said he was still VERY much interested. You never know. He was really my one reliable guy that I would see before canceling my accounts. I'm hoping he really comes around, and we can hopefully start something. The best part about him is, he agreed to my allowance, and he's looking for daytime fun..just in the bedroom, and maybe a few diners here and there cause he's so busy. So I wouldn't have to commit much time to him besides once a week fun for probably hour and a half top. I NEED him to come around.
A pot messaged me on SD.com and he was very blunt. He's offering a 5k allowance and pay all bills..about the same arrangement I have with Mr.S I have a gut feeling that it might be Mr.S spying on me. I haven't deleted my profiles yet and I haven't told him I will yet either. So my paranoia level is still high lol, I don't want to get caught, I don't want to hurt him but what if this guy is for real and I miss out on another good arrangement? I've been dwelling on it, and I've only sent him one response back, which he replied to. I haven't message back after reading it. I want to...but I'm not sure if I should. I feel so torn.

Aaaaaaand I'm off the sugar sites...again

Mr.S and I got into a huge argument this weekend. I truly felt sorry because mostly all of what he said was true. We didn't talk since thursday going into saturday. He cancelled thursday and Friday on me with a bogus excuse he had meetings which is bogus cause I know him better. Saturday he sent me a text that our arrangement was over and he would have some confidential papers for me to sign on Monday and he didn't wish to talk further. I was hurt, outraged, uneasy. It felt like a long time boyfriend was breaking up with me. I let him know how I felt and it became like an 8hr text battle. He said a lot of hurtful things and very true things. One of his big problems was me on the sites. He's legit been following my profiles on the sites. Even tho my pics are private, he knows me well enough to know my writing style and everything else. He even sent me a copy of my SA profile.

I thought I worked around it but I really can't with him, I'd rather pull out my profiles rather than lose what I have with him. He has this whole different picture of me now because of my reaction to the earrings, my profiles, him thinking any piece of new jewelry I have is from another guy, he think I've been escorting around seeing a bunch of other guys, accepting gifts and money from them, and that I got caught up in the lifestyle. I haven't done any of that except yes, been on a few dates with pots. But I have let the lifestyle get to me a bit. And I hate the image he has of me right now and that's not the girl I want to be.

I was out with a girlfriend having drinks, then around 10pm he came over to talk. It felt like we got everything out texting but I was glad he came. We talk for a little and he could tell that I was sorry, sincere, and not putting up a front. He came to my side of the couch and gave me a hug holding me tight for minutes, and ended up making love 3 times...the third time caught me by surprise. They were not short timing either, but he said he missed me terribly so figured what's one more orgasm for me. One of the best make up sex we've had. It was hot..literally lol, we were fucking in sweat. He kept whispering sweet stuff to me, "don't let me go" "you're so special to me" and the 3 words. When cuddling he apologized, and that felt good. I honestly thought I lost him when he first started texting me that day. He left around 1 in the morning to sneak back home.

The day before, Friday. I had a date with a pot. The chemistry was off the roof. He seemed like he would be able to provide a lot from what his income and net worth was on SA. But, he turned out to be a P4P. He said he got screwed in the allowance part before. If he agreed to giving me the allowance half and half I would have followed through but he ended up wanting to meet twice a week for 2K. Ughhh go fuck yourself? He deff was cheap. But I have 2 other pots I've been talking to. I'm having brunch with one today, although he doesn't seem like an SD. Then I'm meeting a pot next week who have agreed to an allowance and meetings. I'm probably taking my profiles off tomorrow so I hope it works with one of these pots!

"Sometimes it hits like a car crash
And it's to late to reverse
Sometimes you make me a better person
Sometimes you bring out the worst
Sometimes we get on like fire
Sometimes we're stubborn like rain
Just when I think that it's over, over
You wave a white flag again"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9nq5vVR1zPc&feature=related

Love that song!

SB's/Escorts

So, I don't ever do this because my blog is always me babbling about myself lol. But I stumbled on a link in FB SB about this girl on Stripper web I think it is who was trying to define the difference between an SB and an escort. She wrote the thread because she has a friend who's an SB and seeing a guy everyday of the week for $500 a week...yeah she's making a huge mistake there.
SB's make mistakes when entering the game, I made a lot that I've owned up to and will never make again cause I learned from them.
The girl was kind of throwing her friend under the bus saying she was an SB before escorting and she would never sleep with an SD..SB's are not to sleep with their SD's so she says. Well Idk how she did it but she must be hella good at convincing others. She said once you've slept with your SD you've just became an escort. I totally disagreed with what she was saying.
I've thought about escorting before, there's nothing wrong with it. But I find the SB lifestyle more laid back. Not really sure how it works but an escort have multiple clientele, different men come in and out. As for an SB you might have one good SD who makes you happy with what he provides, and if he makes you happy in bed too thats even a plus. It's also stable money, and a lot of perks come with it. You build relationships and connections. An SD cares about you and is there for you when you need him. whether it'd be for extra money, mine re did my apt and bought me all new furniture for over 10K just because I asked him. Of course if you choose to let yourself get emotionally involve you have to be set for all the troubles that might bring. But not a lot of SB's crosses that line. I know I will never do it again.
She also brought up the idea that you can make a lot more money as an escort than an SB. Depending on how much the escort charge that might be true in some cases. I wonder how many clients an escort gets a day? Anyways, an escort gets paid X amount to fuck for lets say 2 hrs and have multiple clients...an SB might go to a concert with an SD and fuck him once that day. If you're seeing once a week at 5K, that's about a K a day. You really can't compare the two. I know personally I'd rather hang out with a fun millionaire and do activities that are paid for and have VIP experiences with that person rather then staying in a room for a guy to come see me for an hour or two.
I totally understand how escorts think...they get it over with quickly. Client comes over, boom boom and done lol. I aint mad at that! We're all hustlers and we hustle hard.

You can always tell what kind of a person a man think you are by the earrings he gives you.

Last week I lost the diamond studs Mr.S got me for Vday. Honestly I was just a little bum. I never really liked them, they were very tiny. My loop hole is kind of big and they would just slide in between then and they were not noticeable. So here came an opportunity for him to make up and buy me something I'd like. We even talked about it, he said he'd replace them and told him I'd like something a little bit bigger. I saw him yesterday. He wanted to bring lunch, come over and hang out. I was not in the best of mood, but lighten up and went with the flow. While we're sitting on the couch, he reached into his pocket and gave me the box. I was really surprised and wonder what it could be cause I thought he'd take me with him to get the new earrings. I opened it and it was a pair of studs. First of all the inside of the box looked dusty. The white carton holding the earrings didn't seem like a good fit ( I had my doubts cause of that) And they were the EXACT same earrings as the last ones. I asked him if he got them in the same place, he said no. Anyways, I did my wow face, gave him a peck, said thank you, closed the box and put them down. Apparently, my reaction wasn't enough for him, he got into a bad mood, I was just like whatever. Made through an hour with him then he left. I texted thanks for the earrings, he said he had a lot of fun picking them out. I said it couldn't have been much picking since they're the same as the last ones.

He took it to the heart. He has given me crappy gifts before, I always accept them and let it be. I just thought I would have a say in this because we talked about what I wanted. If it's not what I expected of course I'm not going to just be quiet and keep the earrings and let them rot in my jewelry box. All he had to say was if I want to exchange them I can which he did after hours of going back and forth. I always think it's courtesy to keep a receipt when you buy someone something. I held my tongue the first time he got them and getting the same thing the second time after telling him I wanted something different just wasn't going to fly with me. Call me classless or a bitch lol but I get what I want!

I'm back on Sugar FB..yay!...I think.
I'm also back putting up my profiles, and purchased a few memberships. I hate sending out email blasts and waiting for guys to reply...mind you, if you send out 30 you might get about 5 responses, 4 who are just flakes and the one good one you think is "the one" but turned out to not be the one lol.
Right now I'm talking to one great POT, he seems amazing. 47, good looking, high income and very high net worth. He said he likes my energy and think I'm gorgeous. He asked me out to dinner, so we're working on a day. Keeping my fingers crossed! and my derriere will be in church this Sunday lol..I'm a church girl anyways but I have one more thing to pray to God for. You know when you have a POT who sounds too good to be true, well thats how I'm feeling.

Down time

My sister's wedding was very nice. It was planned well and everything was great. I feel exhausted from it all and wanted some down time. I told Mr.S I'm staying in NY for a few more days of the week when I'm actually back in my apt. I honestly wanted some down time from him and everything. I didn't tell him cause he'd take it the wrong way, I've hinted about a week vacation and he's trying to make me take it same time as his away for his family vacation.
I kind of wanted to have a "YoLo" weekend lol. I met a cute guy at a bar while out in my hometown and had every intention of sleeping with him. I chickened out then regret it the next day. Turns out he was going away for the weekend so we couldn't get together.
It's hard for me to date guys and just sleep with them. I think I'm stuck in the mentality of that I'll sugar date and have sex cause they apparently goes hand in hand, or I'll normal date and take it very slow with no sex. If I could find a second SD I'd be all set :-)

So I'm 95% sure that one of my close friends is seeing a sugar daddy. She's been randomly telling me things that makes me wonder. She has this guy she's seeing in chicago who is a doctor, she visited him for 5 days. And he has a conference in a September in Washington that she's planning on going to with him. She also had suddenly gotten an interested in 'white guys'. She's Jamaican, I've known her since college, she would have never come close to being with a white guy. she's also becoming into older man and I'm trying to put two and two together. She has once mentioned to me the site SA, she said a friend told her about it but she hasn't been on it, but thought about checking it out. I kind of dismissed the convo because I didn't want it to get far due to my own hidden personal life.
Should I ask her, in a nice way? I want to try to bring it up, I'm very sure she's into sugar daddies and just hiding it like I am. I'd love to have a friend I know I can trust be into the lifestyle.

By the way I caught the bouquet :-) !! Crossing my fingers for the next 2 years lol!

3:10 AM

I can't sleep.
I had an early morning, got my eyebrows and eyelashes done for my sister's wedding this upcoming weekend.
Mr.S and I packed up and went to the beach. It was really relaxing and just fun being with him. He always feel more like a boyfriend. we had lunch, drank some wine and beer. A group of boys next to us tried hitting on me. I bet they were wondering what is she doing with this guy lol. They were black.
After the beach, he got the idea to go to his office to smoke, nothing good ever really come out of that. He has this guy who works for him, he's super successful, he's 53 and OMG is he hotttt!. he looks like he's 40, tan, and just handsome. He only does work for him part time, and they've had a 15 yr relationship. He knows about me and where some of Mr.S extra income goes lol. I got to meet him, soon as we arrived in the office he packed up and left to give us privacy..well I think he was wrapping up anyways. I kept hinting to Mr.S about him. I asked him if he would hook me up, he said he doesn't share. I asked when we're done if he would hook me up with anybody, he said idk but not the 53 yr old. I think he's  intimidated by him. He's divorced, kids are in college, doesn't drink, smoke, and he seem like a perfect guy, damn! After stopping at the office we went back to my place. Hung out and did stuff lol.
Went to my pool after he left, then had a girlfriend over. I randomly decided to call him..and we ended up talking for almost 2hrs. not usual for us. Wifey went to a concert, kids were asleep. Eventually hung up when she was arriving home. I passed out right after and that was around 10pm..and now I'm up..can't sleep.

Might have went on a date with a homeless man

I'm about 50% sure. So I replied to an ad on CL and the guy sounded normal. He was very talkative, and said he's experienced in the Sugar world. He supposedly had an SB for four years while she was in med school. She eventually got married to her bf and moved to the west coast. They would meet 3-4 times and he would give her a check every month (I didn't ask for a figure) and they would a variety of activities together, travel, shopping ect..
I figured this guy sound legit, right?? I told him I would meet him in the city which means I was traveling to him. when he sent me his restaurant choices, one place that was like almost a chinese fast food place, and Bertucci's, I figured I need to play it safe and not waste my time. I told him to come to me, and picked a nice sushi.hibachi place.
I walked through the door and he was sitting on a bench waiting for me. My face dropped soon as I saw him. I kind of wanted to run but figured I'd see what happens. He had on a pink shirt, light blue slackers (WTF???), and a lime green tie -_- I wanted to puke!!! and some grey loafers. the pic he sent me, he had a beard but it wasn't as awful looking as when I saw him in person. His beard looked dirty and disgusting. OMG his teeth! they were crooked and some were missing, and very yellow. I knew he wanted to have hibachi since he doesn't like sushi. And man was it a bad idea, the lady seated us right next to these two guys. As soon as we sat down I can see one of the guys leaning over to tell the other one something which obviously was about us. Thank God I sat on the end of the table and wasn't in the middle of them all. I felt like they tried listening to our conversation the whole thing was uncomfortable. I kept a smile and just went along with it. he told me about the previous SB. How she actually was the one who asked him out, they were supposedly working in a project together. She came from a wealthy family. she wanted more from him but he didn't want to commit. Her parents arranged her marriage to a guy who's really wealthy. She was obsessed with her relationship with him and called him during her honeymoon lmfao. Girls, I wanted to burst out laughing so hard hearing all of this. I asked him why he gave her a check every month if she was all set from her family and he gave me a bogus answer. We didn't get to talk about 'how much' that check is. but if i was to move forward it would have to be a whole lot and a total make over for him. I'd start getting his teeth fix..reminds me of Real housewives of OC Nicki who got her bf teeth fix.
Thank God for my tv shows, after the God awful dinner I had my Monday tv shows which kept me entertain. Today Mr.s and I going speed boating :) so psyched!!