Out of sight, Out of mind

I had a semi ok weekend away with my young engineer man. I think that was the last I'll be seeing of him. It was a weird and awkward weekend. First off, he said he was having his friends over- which was going to be a bunch of boys and one other chick cause that's one of their girlfriends, so I thought hey why not! I love being around boys, drinking and hanging all day. It turns out everyone else bailed and he didn't have the courtesy to tell me. We had a conversation about how he doesn't want me to feel awkward or bored so I should bring a friend, I reminded him I'd be fine around everyone. Everyone turned out to be one other couple...It was a fucking couples weekend...I don't do those. I haven't had a boyfriend for the longest time and I felt like it was a set up, and what if I did bring a friend it would be even more awkward. I tried making the best out of it but I couldn't help but notice some things about his personality...I can understand when a man doesn't like being affectionate with a woman in front of others, or they don't like PDA...but we were in a lake house sometimes his friends were around us and sometimes they weren't. He barely paid me any attention...barely talked to me, looked at me unless he had to..I felt like a fly on the wall around him and it made me awkward being there. Even his friends kind of notice so they were the ones talking to me most. Not even my SD treats me that way- ever. When it came time to go to bed, we slept on the same bed. He tried making a move on me pulling me on to him, I slowly moved his hands and said--goonight. I was horny and was hoping to get some but i'm not giving it up to-I don't wanna say asshole- but to someone like him. I wasn't sure I liked him that way, but this weekend really helped with my decision. We haven't gotten in touch since we left on sunday..I hope we never do.

Before Mr.S left for family vacation on Friday I had a to do list of things I needed and he was to take me shopping. He fucked that up. I gave him an early notice, told him which mall I didn't want to go to (I live very close to one and have a few friends who work there) so I told him any other mall is fine.  He brought me to this outside shopping place which barely have anything..when I gave him a list of what I wanted. I was furious. Lately he seem to not be able to do anything right. On my list I had a new software for my Mac, New sneakers (left my one pair at the hotel when we went away together), and a nice duffle bag (I'm eyeing an LV one). We ended up walking around store to store with no result, only item we got was the software. Told him I'll just get everything else myself. When you do something nice, you get rewarded...This was going to be a double reward since he was going away. I had something sexy plan for us when we get back but that was a done deal. I just wanted to fuck him and kick him out. Which I did. I don't remember even kissing him, a few pecks...clothes off..I get on top and ride..hard..before you know it he was done lol. I gave him a 2mn cuddle then he was out the door. I texted him if he had a time restraint he should have told me before (since we couldn't go to a decent mall which were less than 40mns away). His excuse was he's sorry, he felt off all day etc..
I think he's been feeling guilty..He's texting me all the time while away, I barely respond or keep a conversation going unless it's about business. He randomly texted me at 8am..Out of Sight out of Mind..which escalated into something so stupid. Umm You reap what you sow. Men can be so dumb, you give them all the attention they could ever need and barely appreciate it...when you don't pay much attention to them their world start crumbling, it's hilarious. I told him Absence makes the heart grow fonder lmfao..I wish he would stop worrying about me and enjoy his time with his wife and kids.

Lies & Alibis

Hey sugar lovers,
I hate not keeping up with my blog. I've also realized a lot of bloggers haven't been updating lately, I wish I had more stories to read when I log in. Anywho, things have been going alright with me so far. Just keep running into obstacles with Mr.S..we don't only have a personal relationship right now, we're getting into business together and man so many times I've wondered am I doing the right thing and is it worth it.

We haven't signed a contract yet but we've come to a term sheet agreement. I have about 67% ownership, and he has the rest. Although we will be splitting the economics 50/50 which I'm ok with it after going over some things with him. We have had a lot of disagreements but I figured we were both negotiating with each other and when it comes to that part of business you don't see the person as friend/family you're just someone trying to get yours. All the talks of this and that deff made my libido non existent. Every sugar babe out there is a hustler, or else we wouldn't have the backbone to do this kind of relationship. I'm still not 100% sure if I'm making the right choice with him but I'm hoping this would bring us closer and cut out some of the very stooooopid fights we have.
About what I'm doing: It's an online dating site but it's different from what's out there right now. I'm hoping I can make some profit from this and save up for Grad school. I like the idea because it's something small that I can do from home and on my free time. It's a lot of work starting up but it's low cost and I'm sure the hardest part is the beginning. I feel very secured that Mr.S is behind me on it because he knows what he's doing and can take it to a level I probably couldn't.

As I mentioned before, I deleted all my sugar profiles..Hooray!! and for real for real lol. I want to focus on what I'm doing. I feel like I'm working two jobs...Mr.S...the business..and putting time in for friends/family and the guys I'm dating it's so hard but worth it.
I confronted Mr.s about his online profile and messaging SBs. It was the funniest thing. I have him wrapped around my fingers right now. I ignored the whole thing for a week. Recently, we had a beach day, talked about business and figured I do want to do this with him..but before I decide I wanted to see if he was lying to me.
My thing is..we had a blowout the week before on a thursday. Then he came over early friday and we made up. He accidentally messaged my fake SB profile friday morning-before making up with me. So, I thought, if he stop messaging my profile I'll take it as a sign he's stopping his search. But this dude carried the conversation on saturday and sunday. He stopped messaging back so I sent him a message to see whats up, and he never replied. I figured ok maybe he stopped...Until I went through his phone and found out that he was interested in meeting with one SB.... But he stopped texting her back on saturday...so technically he stopped showing interest BUT I wanted to make him pay for it anyways, and I felt hurt. So when I told him that he messaged a profile I had up and knows everything he said to her.. he was speechless. Crickets. He was so off and had nothing to say. I made a big deal out of it even when I knew he gave up his search etc,, but I felt hurt. Then he came clean that over the years he has met up with a few SB's when he thought things were over or coming to an end. I denied ever meeting anyone and would never hurt him this way-this is all a game. Bottom line he said none of them compared to me blah blah blah. Did he sleep with any of them? A little part of me think so..he probably met some fake wanna be SB's who gave it up to him for cheap although he denied it. Trust is a little off with us right now...but I'm sure we'll get back to our sweet spot. He admits to being a jackass and a jerk.  He's been a good boy lately. I'm getting back to spending his money- which is what's really important.

I've mentioned the young engineer I've been dating- he's 29 and really cute. We've gone in 3 dates so far and made out once. No sex yet- although I've kind of been planning around it. He randomly invited me to his parents lake house. Him and his friends are going up there for the weekend and I'm guessing his parents won't be there..or else that'd be weird. I think he might be moving a little fast. I mean, he's already introducing me to his friends and going away for a whole weekend together...Last thing I want to get into is in a relationship. He's nice and really cute, so he can be a little play toy. He has good taste in food though, he has taken me to fine dining establishments and I did not expect that from him.
I'm still seeing the cardiologist- it's weird. I see him more as a friend but after our dates, we kind of making out a little- not tongue or anything like that. Yet I feel no spark..maybe I should let him know and keep him as a friend.
I've been in contact with my ex SD. He's a very successful business man and wanted his advice on things. He's been amazing. Last time I saw him, he was in Boston for a business trip. We talked on the phone for an hour recently, mostly about my business and some personal things. He told me to send him any documents i have to sign before doing so. He's been really helpful. He might have to come to Boston more due to the business deal he's investing in right now. I would be sooooooo happy if he does. He would be my getaway SD. He's very generous. He has a girlfriend SB back in NY. She's living with him etc..although it's an open relationship. If I can see him more than once a month, I would deff strike up an arrangement with him.

Mr.S goes away in vacation with the fam for a WHOLE week next week..I can't say I'm going to miss him and excited to have a week without him. Cheers!

Catching up!

Hi lovers!- Quick post
I felt like I've abandoned you guys. I'm sorry just literally been really busy.

From meeting an amazing guy I've been hanging out with/dating..he's 29 not a sugar date but he's so cute and works in engineering. not rich but he's good for the time being haha.

Also starting a business...which Mr.S thinks is a Brilliant idea.

Things have been going ok with him...except...I've recently told him that I've deleted all my online profiles and adding all my eggs in one basket. I have a fake online profile that I've used to spy on him (that's still up), which I messaged him from before but he didn't respond..which was a good sign...that was a few months ago.
But NOW, he has this other profile everything on it is fake..i.e age/location/job etc..He messaged the fake profile I have and started talking to her..aka...ME. lol
I'm trying to get info on what he thinks about our relationship..so far he's only said it's complicated. And haven't been responding back.. I feel like he knows it's me..but then again he might not. I have told him a million times please if you want other girls..indulge!! I just don't like being lied to. But we'll see...I'll keep you guys updated on that.

My business idea is kind of taking off. EXCEPT...Mr.S and I are having some disagreements. It's MY idea, and my business. He wants to own 50% of it....WTF????- What he's investing isn't much.
He said he would take care of all the finances to start up..which mind you isn't much and under 10K, and control the finances of the company as a whole, investing ect...
He's trying so hard to make me believe why he should own 50% and knowing how to handle start ups and succeed at it..
I don't want to be arrogant but I want something for myself, not something that I'm a partner of... he has his own business, fuck off mine. I feel like if he asked for 20-30 % I would be hey that seems fair. I'd even let him have 40-45 because he's investing and putting in some work.
Supposedly he said he's ok being just the guy I bounce ideas off of...but I don't think he would be happy with it, he will maybe resent me for it. I'm leaning towards negotiating what he can owe or not owing nothing at all and just be in the background. But he also said if I can't do the deal with him and I choose someone else (I have 3 other potentials) then our friendship is over, arrangement is over etc. I feel he's being so controlling because he wants to "get richer and make me rich"
I could use some advice..but I know that I'm 100% sure I won't hand him 50% ownership. I did my homework and it makes no sense. I have a vision and know where I want it to head. He's trying so hard to convince me...how he has connection...who he can hire to help..have the company going in about 2 weeks...I feel he has so much plan already without me. Giving him part half ownership will silence me out a bit and I don't want it. We have a meeting tomorrow and I'm a bit nervous- I think he means well, but from his words and everything else I can feel some kind of greed. He's already rich, wife and kids set for life- but yet he wants a huge chunk of something I want to work on for myself. Sad that I'm already thinking of ways to buy him out if we do succeed. I don't want the ties to him forever. The reaction he gave me tonight via text really made me think twice about his character. He's willing to end close to a 3 yr friendship/arrangement, over the fact that I have a small business idea that he may or may not be a part of.