Doctor Doctor You don't have to cure me

Hello sugary loves!

So I met with a fellow sugar baby this weekend, first one I've ever met and she was so sweet. We talked for hours, it was refreshing and great meeting her :) I'm always open to meeting with new sugars.

I have a few inquiries to look into. a few pots I've been talking to and trying to set up meetings with. I feel like I'm breaking a rule i've been following which is having an allowance discuss before meeting. Because it's been a waste of time meeting w/ someone and not having around the same number in mind and it all gets awkward when you realize it won't work. One of the guys I think I might past on. Met on him AM and supposedly he wants to meet about twice a week, and i'm getting a vibe he doesn't make much and when I throw in a number he'll probably think I'm crazy. With so much media attention, any average joe think they can afford a sugar baby. But I'm going to give him the benefit of the doubt. I'm also talking to this other guy who seems a lot more legit. He's in finance. He had a previous SB for close to a 2yr relationship until she moved. These are all good signs so far. He's looking to establish another relationship, meeting once a week. I haven't been able to get out of him what kind of allowance he'd offer, but I told him I'm looking for a monthly allowance and gifts. We might meet tomorrow for lunch, so I'm crossing my fingers that he will match my number.

Lately I've been seeing this guy who's a cardiologist. I'm not sure how much they make, but I'm thinking it's probably not higher than 300k? If anyone have any insights, I'd love to hear. We were dating for a few months a while ago before the beginning of the year. We went in about 3-4 dates. He never made a move on me as much as to kiss me. It was weird, I took as in, not that he's not interested but it was just weird! I know I should be happy he wasn't trying to maul me lol. But I ended it with him. Then we got back in touch and we've been going out on a few dates. He finally made a move on me, we kissed a little. I'm not sure about him yet, I'm not sure if the physical attraction is truly there. It's how I felt about my SD when I first started with him but I got to know him very well and I'm like in love with him. so I don't want to rule this guy out yet.

Doctor doctor you don't have to cure me
From this pain that I'm feeling
It's all because because
Because I'm love sick
Right now I'm love sick
I know it's craziness, but I can't help it
Doctor doctor
I'm love sick love sick


Luvsik-by Mozella


Used to hear this song ALLLLLL day when I used to work in Forever XXI Hahaha my retail days :)

He must feed on drama

I've felt like I've been on a roller coaster these past few days.

Good news: My apt is all put together! I loooooove it! exactly my taste, it's comfy, and look so modern, looks like it came out of a magazine. I think I want to get it featured in a home magazine or something lol or maybe I should look into interior design...either way I heart my place. 

So, Mr.S had plan on staying over last night, we planned on going into the city, have dinner and grab drinks. Before he came over we were texting, he had the nerve to ask me if I wanted to go to the mall. I'm like for what?? He said to shop for clothes that make him look good, and things that make me look even better. I respectfully declined. I don't know why he think I would agree to go shopping when he went off at me few weeks ago about how he spend too much money shopping. We ended up having a small argument then we were fine. He came over, we hung out and talked a little. I was over the whole situation that happened few weeks ago. He apologized again, came over with flowers and we were all good. Had some make up sex before going out to dinner...I've been so horny lately. Dinner was great, we went to this French place. On the tables they had these little tea light candles. We started playing a game on who would blow it out first from a distance, every time we blew it out, the waiter came and brought us a new one lmfao. We went through 5 different tea lights it was hilarious, they will definitely remember us. 

We got in the car, and was talking, I don't remember what exactly were talking about but I asked him would he like it better if he had someone else, and he supposedly said yes...which he later denied. I was silent the rest of the ride, I was a little mad but not over the top. As soon as we got back I went to the bathroom, when I came out he was gone. His bag was gone and everything else. I was like what the fuckkkk????. Called him and he answered. Asked him wtf? He said oh he felt unwelcome, like I didn't want him there. He'd rather leave than feel this way. he mentioned how things have been awkward between us, i don't seem to enjoy myself with him anymore ect..It ended up being 1hr and a half conversation. I'm an emotional person, even more so when I'm a little drunk so I was crying. I felt all weird, sitting in the dark of my living room talking to this guy and crying over bullshit. I freaked out about how he left, without saying one word. I felt that was so immature and disrespectful. He ended up apologizing for it, of course. He always "handle things wrong" with me. He ended up asking if he can come back...I let him back in. He was kind of drunk and didn't want him driving off too far. 

He saw a side of me that doesn't appear often. I went off on his ass. I was angry. This whole thing made me feel like I'm in a REAL relationship. When we woke up, it was kind of awkward..but I saw he was making an effort. trying to hold me and kiss my forehead. We kind of ended up working things out. But I have an agenda. I'm not sure I want to stay in this. I'm giving myself about 3 months. If another outburst happens before then I'm done. I need to get on my game to find a replacement. This is like a job, unless you have something lined up you don't just quit, unless it's really necessary lol. 

When we were in bed talking, he told me how he found his wife's journal, most of it is about how much she hates him. She wrote in the journal that if anything happens to her to blame the husband lmfao. She think he's out for her. People are crazy sometimes, this bitch is psycho. I told him when something happens to her just make sure you're not with me cause that'll be one hell of an alibi. 

Blast from the past

Hope all sugars enjoyed their weekend!
I had a bizarre weekend. Had some fun with some girlfriends. And my ex boyfriend I told you guys about came and visited me. I wasn't sure what the deal was, but apparently he had plan on sleeping over and such without telling me. He gave me the idea that we were going to just meet up for a drink and catch up. Back in college, when he used to visit me he would always spend the weekend, bring overnight stuff and change of clothes. apparently this was the same thing but he could have given me a heads up. We went out for a drink, I got a little drunk, then we had dinner. Checked out a few more bars then headed back to my place. From there I opened a bottle of Hennessy Mr.S gave me, and we drunk some more. I was getting kind of tired, we started watching a movie, and he started kissing me. We made out here and there but I didn't let myself get into it. I had my mind set that I wouldn't have sex with him, he doesn't deserve to enter and leave my life or vagina when he wants. It was getting late, I was tired, we were both kind of drunk so I made a comment about if he's sleeping over. turns out he had plan to so I said I'll fix the couch for him. He kind of tried to talk me out of it but I had made up my mind. My couch is very comfy and brand new so he had no reason to complain. He tried getting me to stay up some more but I was ready for my bed. I kissed him goodnight and went to my bedroom.

I woke up and felt awful about the situation. I wasn't expecting this so it was all a surprise to me. The whole situation was weird. Haven't seen the guy in about a year and there he was cuddling with me. It always happen this way. I think I'm over him, I'm not totally sure, I did feel a little something when we kissed but it's nowhere close to what I feel for Mr.S I've mentioned how I can't be passionately and emotionally involve with more than one guy and that guy right now is Mr.S and I'm not looking for it to change unless the right guy comes along. At one point when I was with my ex I remember myself saying he's the one normal average guy that I would give up this lifestyle for and just settle down with without all the glitz and glamour. Not anymore. If he does decided to see me on a regular basis it has to be nothing more than us hooking up. If not, I will just let the whole thing go and move on.

I'm talking with a pot who's 2hrs from me and wants me to come to him and he would compensate my transportation fee. I don't mind the distance, especially if I'm seeing him about twice a month or few days at a time. I just messaged him about what day I can this week but also ask him to discuss the allowance with me because I'm not taking a 2hr drive to find out he's looking to pay me $200 or something. I'd be pissed at myself. I bring up allowance talk in the first conversation with a pot, not sure if it's the best idea but I can't take all the back and forth only to find out he's looking for a cheap ride or P4P. Mr.S and I did P4P when we first started, it was something about him...I always trusted him. Of course I tested him first. On our second date I made him buy me a Louis speedy bag. He did well. Look where I am with him now cause I followed my instinct. But nowadays with all the fakes and wannabe SD's out there, No way can you trust them to a full extent.

I'm an evil genius

Oooook...So it took me forever to figure out how to write a post..I don't like these changes. I'm not THAT tech savvy lol which I've mentioned before. I liked the other blogger dashboard cause it was simple. I'm a simple girl..most times *wink*

Anywhooooo...So I'm still not all 100% with Mr.S..aside from just apologizing I guess I'm waiting for something more. Obviously he's not going to buy me some diamonds lol...or take me shopping BUT just a sweet gesture would help. Some flowers would do the trick, or a nice thoughtful date. He came over today, brought lunch, booze, and weed. I used to smoke with him or just socially with friends.. cause duh he's a pothead. But I gave up smoking starting this year and have no need for it. I just like my booze. We hung out, ate, and he smoked. He thought I would, but didn't. Surprisingly we only had sex once. I wasn't even into it much. Got the second half of my allowance though...that made me cum HA!
He was telling me how he was up late last night. One of his friends, who I think kind of work for him or something got himself into some trouble. He's an addict. He's been doing Oxi for a long time and last night he drew out 20K from his savings to purchase Oxi. He freaked out cause his wife balance the checkbook and he needed someone to forge a bank statement for him. They posted something on Craiglist within in a hour it was done. Men. He texted me last night that he's an evil genius...now I know why.
I have a feeling and know for sure that he's going to provide him with the $$$ so that the wife doesn't find out. He has a consultant who just started helping him with his business and he kind of figured where some of his spending is happening...which is on me. But he said the guy was more worried about the $$$ that he's been lending his friend which is a LOT. I guess he always end up bailing him out with all his shit.

My ex bf, who I haven't seen in a year is visiting me tomorrow. He said he's in my area for the weekend, he have a few friends who moved here and so did his brother. We're going to have drinks and catch up. Last time we had drinks was before I moved a year ago. He's young, 25..personal trainer..not exactly my hubby type. we dated on and off for 3 years. I'm not sure how I'm suppose to deal with this catching up thing. Idk if he wants to win me back or be friends w/benefits or just friends..I'm nervous.
Idk if he'll end up staying over, if we'll have sex, or if my feelings for him will come back...I feel a wreck every time I think about it.

I want a nose job! I think that's in my list of things to do sometime this year or early next year...birthday gift? hmm maybe.

Too much Drama for my liking

So this past weekend Mr.S decided to pick a random argument with me. I'm not sure if it's because he needed something interesting to do but I wasn't ready to hear any of it. I went to look at some cars, and texted him about how much of a down payment will he gave me, I just needed a number in case I saw something I liked. He let me know, and the next day he sent me  text about how it seems like I'm trying to get as much $$$ out of him in a short timetable as quick as possible...and also our relationship is losing its authenticity due to that. I was having brunch with a girlfriend, I choose to ignore the text until I had enough free time to think, text him back and give him a piece of my mind. I asked him how is the relationship losing its authenticity, is my vagina also losing its authenticity lmfao. He went off about how from Jan-March he have spent over $20,000 alone on gifts for me, and if he choose to pull back a little he knows that my reaction towards him will be vicious, it feels like I'm becoming more interested in what he gives me, it's becoming more like a "money grab".

My first thought was that he's running out of money or his business isn't doing well. But I'm guessing it's none of that because he didn't want to stop what we have but just spend less. He added what he spent in the past 3 months, and if he continues like this for a year, it would be 150K. I think what he spent money on was really refurnishing my apartment. I kept telling him it's not like next month I'm going to need to refurnish my apt again or need another down payment for a car. He said he didn't sign up to spend all the extra money he have spent on me the last 3 months. I said I didn't sign up to have you sleep over in my apt when your wife kick you out, I didn't sign up to see you more than the days we agreed one. bottom line is he came a little more out of his pocket and all hell broke loose. The reality is I've been more of a girlfriend to him than just an SB and wrote him an email about all of it, and told him I'm not sure if I wanted to continue this if all he thought of me was a money grabbing whore. At that point I was really done with him. He wrote me back a somewhat genuine email. I mean, I understand where he's coming from. He have spent a lot on me these past few months. But the way he came at me about it was just WTF. I talked to my bff about it (she doesn't know every detail about our arrangement). She implied that I was being a brat and needed to apologize to him, cause one thing he asked is that we wait about 2 months to purchase my car. I want my car for the summer, I want to enjoy it. I don't mind waiting, but he was just a dick about everything. 

I've been in the sugar game long enough to know that there are ups and downs, and when you've been in a good relationship/built a great friendship, you shouldn't just throw it away over an argument. In the end, he kept saying he wants to keep buying me gifts, take me nice places and buy me nice things, and have the car in 2 months blah blah...seriously, this whole argument was just uncalled for. There was no need for it cause things are still the same. He came over yesterday, thought it'd be a little awkward but it wasn't. We hung out on my balcony, watched some tv, drank some wine. I missed him, and I was horny, we kind of jumped on each other. After sex we cuddled, and out nowhere he started apologizing about everything. I was not expecting that at all. I'm glad he did though. I apologized for being a brat, but he said no, you're perfect. ok I'll take that lol. then we had some real make up sex.

 I'm not over the whole argument, I'm over it to the point where I'll put it in the past but the way he came at me with everything just doesn't sit well with me. I'm at a point where I don't want to go the extra mile anymore since he did and made a huge deal out of it. For example, I'm suppose to see him Thursday, but kids are on vaca and they have a family day plan to go to the carnival. I usually would suggest he pick another day he's free but I have no desire to after what just happened. He mentioned the extra things we do for each other without having it being expected is what makes us different from being a business transaction and such well duh! 

So, I got played this weekend. I'm not even sure if that's the right word for it haha. But lawyer guy, we had a date on saturday. We went out for drinks and dinner and then invited him over to my place to watch a movie. We did watch a movie...kind of lol. we had a heavy make out session, and before I knew it my pants were coming off lol. I didn't mind it, i've been saying I needed some new dick in my life and this was perfect. He ate me out like a pro, i'll give him that. Had me close to orgasm. I wanted to feel his dick, gosh when he wiped it out I was like woah! I didn't expect that. it was pretty big and beautiful lol. He had the balls to try to put it in without a condom, umm no. I went to my room and got one, and then it was on. I got on him on my couch, and ride him like a pro. It felt AmaZing!! Fresh, new, different. I came within a few minutes and he came right after. After the sex I was kind of ready for him to leave lol but he was cuddled up on me, and kissing my hands and whatnot. I wasn't really into it..it's weird. The only guy I'm ok with doing that is Mr.S...it's hard for me to be affectionate to a certain level with more than one guy. He ended up asking me if I wanted him to sleep over or go home. umm get the fuck out please and thank you:) I didn't say that but it was very close. So he ended up leaving, and haven't heard from him since. Well he texted me that he got home safely...and after that nothing. I texted him on Monday, and he haven't gotten back to me. I don't really care for it, cause I wasn't interested in him like that, just the sex part. He could have been getting some good pussy from me on a regular basis lol but hey I guess he just wanted to hit it haha. Gosh, 40 yr old men trying to hit and quit it..??? what kind of world is this. He spent 3 months taking me out and all that lol that's just weird to me. Idk if it's cause I always sneaked in that I wasn't looking for a boyfriend or relationship, thought he'd be happy with that. 

Oh well. I need a vacation from all this! 

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Cheers to the Freakin' Weekend, I'll drink to that! :)
I haven't been drinking much on the weekend which is a great thing cause all that drinking I've done the past months were getting to me. BUT I'm thinking my wine cabinet might be getting here tomorrow, Mr.S and I are suppose to bet on what's being delivered, we have no clue since I'm still waiting on a few other things to get here. I'm hoping it's either my zebra print accent chair or my wine cabinet. I talked to him about how I felt dealing with my apartment situation. He kind of turn it around and made me feel just a tad bad for doubting him. He said he always make the payment first of the month, since we were in Vegas it went straight pass him, and he just changed the name of his company so that was also a problem, they need new papers from him and credit info blah blah. I ended up feeling bad because he's right, he have never let me down and not do something he'd say he'd do for me. But regardless, he gave me 2 month's rent to keep in an account. That made me feel a lot better, and we're pass it.

Lawyer guy, it feels like it's been almost a month since I last saw him and we shared that one passionate kiss. Last week, he went down to FL to visit his parents, and while driving his dad's car from meeting a friend at a bar he got pulled over. His lights were not on or something, I guess he had a little bit to drink, he was arrested, spent the night in Jail, now he has a DUI. He had a previous one from about 9 yrs ago, but he think his license might be suspended for a while. He's awaiting his court date and said he have a great lawyer representing him, so that's good I guess. He's 40 yrs old and need to get his shit together lol seriously. I'm seeing him this weekend, I have to drive to him, I'm looking forward to seeing him, he's one hot 40 yr old. Maybe we'll have sex...maybe..I just want to run my fingers through his hair again.

Enjoy your weekend sugars!

Paper Trail

I'm in kind of a pissy mood right now..
BUT I had a marvelous morning, my new iPhone came in, all my contacts were backed up and I was happy.
Few minutes ago I went to throw away some garbage, and on my door was a letter from the building. This was for a late rent payment, which got me really pissed. My building just got new management not too long ago, name change and everything. The previous management, when they send you a notice for a late payment, it was a friendly reminder. This new management, it's literally a threaten letter that they will take legal action if you don't pay up in 14 days or move the fuck out! Maybe this is a wake up call for me. Mr.S have always made a few payments late, then I kind of talked to him about it, but wasn't harsh or anything. I figured maybe he would set up automatic payments since they do have that option.

I'm feeling more weird than angry. I know he's paying my apartment out of his business. The name on the apartment is actually his business. I know he doesn't want his name on it, and that's fine with me. But I'm thinking should I suggest he put my name on it and make him pay 3 months in advance each time..
or leave his business name on it and have him pay 3months in advance. I just feel weird about the whole situation. Getting that letter and the way it was worded and everything about it just gave me a very bad vibe and felt a sense of insecurity. My apartment is expensive, I know I probably wouldn't stay in it after things ends b/w me and him unless I get someone else to cover my rent,  but he said he'd pay for 3 more months after we break things off. I've thought about moving to a cheaper place, but I'd rather live here for now, SB's deserves nice things after all :)

Going to stop over thinking things, I have a gym session with my trainer I can deff punch a thing or two right now.
Xoxo

Aaaand we're back!

We had such an amazing trip! Just like last time, he treated me so well. Everything was perfect..well we had a few mishaps but didn't let any of it get on our way of having a fun time. The ride there was amazing! We didn't even have a flight attendant like last time so we took great advantage of that lol. We basically boozed the whole ride there, slept, ate, the whole nine yard. I took so many "typical" private jet pics lol till I lost my phone...that's a whole other story.
We stayed at the Cosmo again, beautiful hotel, we loved our suite! Unlike last time we didn't plan to do much, we did everything and anything last time so we just wanted to relax. first night out, we went to Marquee, nice club but awful staff. Took almost an hour to get our bottle service going. We started having a good night until I really don't know what went wrong but one of the security guard didn't exactly attack me but got in my face and was yelling at me, I was kind of giving Mr.S a lap dance (nothing dirty) and guess it wasn't appropriate, but he didn't have to get on my face about it. Then Mr.S kind of went off on him, then the security guard said something referring to me as "his prostitute". They got into it I was crying my eyes out and was just done. I'm an emotional person I don't like confrontations and especially when someone attack me for no reason. It takes a lot to get to me but that guy just hit all the wrong buttons. We left the club and went back to our suite and decided not to let that ruin the night. The next day, he called up the club and spoke to the manager and head of security about what happened, they will be getting a Horrible review from me on Yelp! The rest of the trip went smooth, I lost my phone but it's all replaceable.


We SHOPPED! Well, I shopped lol. I will be taking pics with my phone once I get it and post them on FB but I'll put up pics here to give you guys an idea of what I got. I have 4 different iPhone cases..but no phone lol. I got a pink Chanel one, 2 Louis Vuitton and one Bentley with just the "B" first letter of my name. Got a new louis Vuitton bag, I wanted Chanel but couldn't find a store in the 2malls we went. This is my 3rd and will be last Louis, I love the bag but want to mix it up a bit. I'm not sure I want to keep this color, thinking of exchanging it for something different.  We went to MK, I schooled him on how MK is so overrated lol he said "for you, oh yeah! you only like expensive things" haha know me so well. I went in to get a gold stylish watch, but somehow ended up spending over 700 on what I really don't know. The ladies at the store were all over us, offering us everything in the store I think it's cause they saw all the bags we were holding and figured he had the money to spend. I got a watch, 3 gold bracelets, and two pair of shades. We went to Christian L, I have my second pair of Loubs! I got the classy, black ones. He doesn't love really high heels, so he was happy I got those. I love them! But they're a little slippery..Got some lingerie from Agent Provocateur, got a few shirts and dresses from Tommy Bahama. We had dinner at Le Cirque, it was awesome! We had dinner at the Eiffel tower like last time, that was also great. Went to a cigar bar, smoked my first cigar while drinking scotch, it was so much fun, told him I felt gangster haha. We gambled at the high roller tables, that was an awesome experience. I remember just last week I was saying I need to be spoiled and he read my mind:) Half of my allowance is in plus extra since this was a trip.

While Mr.S was away at Disney w/ the fam, he purchased a diamond necklace for me..so thoughtful. When wifey was kicking him out of the house, she threw his suitcase around and found it. She asked him about and he said it was for her for mother's day...ughhh. That was my necklace lol, I told him he owe me diamond necklace. He's being let in in his house again.. she told him he have to go to rehabilitation center for his "addiction" to weed lol. The all American family..behind close doors.

I'm hoping my phone claim goes well, and I receive early next week, I feel so disconnected..although I do have a house phone but still..I'm mega tired, jet lag, passed out and took a 5hr nap today, haven't unpacked, and probably won't sleep much tonight. I had a date with the lawyer guy on Tuesday, had to cancel due to Vegas, rescheduled for tonight but no phone, sent him an email not sure it's his right email address though. This might be a perfect way to just get rid of him without having to explain why. Might take advantage of it or might just get back to him when I get my phone.

I've been talking to a pot who's married, he's 33-just the age I started with Mr.S told him about my past experience. Mind you he was trying to convince me a hot guy like him doesn't need to pay a girl to spend time with him. I told him to get back to me with that when you're not married. I explained my relationship with Mr.S whom I referred to as an Ex SD, I don't feel SD's need to know about each other. I think I sold him on the idea and he now wants to meet for a drink. If I can turn him into another Mr.S, that'd be perfect. Two young SD's, attractive and hella rich, perfect combo. Keeping fingers cross :)

VEGAS!!!!

So he did get everything together.
This is an impromptu trip, I packed everything and anything lol had no time.
2nights/3days away just what I needed.
Waiting for the limo to come get us and drive us to where he have the jet waiting.
I am super psyched!!!
Will write a post about it when I get back, Muahzzz!!!

Update!

I didn't update you guys on my diet day to day like I wanted to. Sorry loves. I'm done with it sooooo glad! I love food and couldn't wait to chew and eat something delicious. I lost about 6 lbs. My body get really hard to drop weight fast. I'm at a good weight, and doing a bootcamp bikini body class the end of this month to get my abs to look a lot better. Overall I feel amazing!

So, Last night, Mr.S texted me about if I wanted to hang out. I don't see him on weekends, I was getting a mani figured why not. We had dinner, went out in the town and had drinks. Came back to my place and watched a movie and devoured each other. He was away a week long with the family in vacation, we were both deprived of sex, so we went at it for hours. It was a little over 11pm we were cuddling, and in my head I thought he would leave by now, until he mumbled can he spend the night..I got up and said What?? Apparently wifey found him smoking weed by the pool, got into a fight that escalated into her throwing his stuff out and kicking him out of the house. I was in an awkward position and just let him spend the night. It was nice cause it was unexpected and unplanned, he showered me with kisses from the time we went to bed to when I woke up.
I told him to get his shit together because this was only for one night. I emphasized on ONE night, he's not moving in here. This is my bachelorette pad and not ready to give that up lol.

After he left and went to his office, he texted me if I have plans tomorrow. I said no, and he said he's trying to make a trip happen for me and him to take a private plane to Vegas!!! this would be our second trip via a private jet. It would only be for a few days, but I'm down for it. He said he's not totally sure yet but will let me know later, so I'm keeping my fingers cross. Our last trip to Vegas was luxurious and the best trip of my life. We won't have enough time to do all we did but I need to fit shopping in there. I hope it happens, but I don't want to get too excited, either way I want to go shopping!
I have a date with the lawyer guy tomorrow, if I head to vegas might have to cancel, for the second time. I feel bad but oh well.
My ex boyfriend- he's 25 now I think...messaged me yesterday. We talked and stuff, I haven't seen him since last summer. Supposedly he have a few friends who moved to my city and so did his brother so he come up here a lot to visit. He said he want to catch up, so we plan on meeting in about 3 weeks. I'm not sure if I have any feelings left for him. But we'll see, I don't want to make my life complicated so I'm not sure if I will let him back in.
I've been talking to a few pots, I need to turn at least one of them into my second SD. this can be such hard work. Hope the sugar bowl's treating all you ladies well! :)