I had a non sugary date with the man from CL, it was an hour lunch, he picked a really nice Italian restaurant. The date went pretty well, He seemed really nervous at first, but chilled out a bit after a little while. We conversed really well, and got really comfortable with each other. He had a meeting at 1pm, so after lunch we parted ways and talked about meeting again the next day.
He was really easy in the eye. Not as attractive as his pictures looked, but was still cute. While leaving the restaurant, the owner of the place handed me his card, I thought how nice. After I parted ways with my date and walked to my car, the owner ran to my car, and told me to text him..WTF! Lol. I was Cracking up, I told my date about it after, and he said he didn't know he was in a competition at the restaurant.
I decided not to do a second date with him. As much as I was feeling spontaneous about meeting someone new and maybe having a one night thing, I changed my mind and decided I'd wait for Mr.S because the "I miss you sex" will be so worth it.
When back, I have one pot to touch base with and one non sugary guy to go on a first date with.
I decided to be smarter about this, soon after my first student loan bill came through. I'm going to find a second daddy to pay off all my school loans so when I do decide to get out of the sugar world i can be debt free. I don't think I can ever really be done with the sugar world, I couldn't imagine living a different lifestyle than this.
On another note, hope everyone have some great NYE plans! New year, New goals!
Quick tip: I got my eyelashes done, the lady does it one by one instead of the eyelashes from the stores that u just glue on. They look amazing! full like the Kardashian's eyelashes, if any ladies looking for something new to try in the beauty department, I recommend this!
Friday, December 30, 2011
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Looking For Love in All the Wrong Places
Welcome new followers! Yay, glad to know I'm not babbling for no reason lol. Any feedback is good feedback =)
I'm currently using my new macbook ! Oh gosh I love it sooooo much! Way better than a regular PC.
I just had breakfast, although I have work to do for Mr.S I'm putting it off, and it's not like he'll fire me or anything...I think.
Yesterday I browsed CL and put up an ad, received a whole lot of messages from creepers. this one guy asked me if I wanted to go to an orgy party with him...umm I love my life and not trying to catch anything and die so no thanks!
I talked to two possible guys to meet up with from CL, I'm meeting one for lunch in an hour. He's tall, works in my town, but lives in NYC. He also have a place in my town cause he was tired of the commute. He's 32, looks really good, look younger than his age, works in Finance. This is not a sugary date but when coming up with plans on what we wanted to do he mentioned taking me shopping!!! Lol how perfect is that. But I acted like it was a strange idea since we don't even know each other and he wants to take me shopping. I feel like he have some SD instinct in him. He said every woman he talks to on CL always need someone to take them shopping. I'm going to welcome the idea after our date. I'm so excited!! I don't want him as an SD maybe just someone I can see as a normal, casual relationship. He will make me want to come home on the weekends some more..hopefully. Hopefully fall in love in get married? I'm dreaming again...
The other guy I spoke to is alright, he's 34 and seem really put together. He lives outside of NYC, so I'm not really welcoming the idea of meeting him. But I'm keeping him as a back up just in case that it doesn't work out with this guy.
VEGAS!!!! Last night, Mr.S purchased our ticket for Vegas, We will be going in Mid January for 4 days, not as long of a trip as I'd hope, but never been to Vegas and going with him is perfect. It will be a luxurious trip, we're staying at the Palms, spas, shows, and try to do the whole nine yard. I'm psyched, I wish he would surprise me with a Private Jet like last year, but I'm not counting on it. Either way, I'm psyched !!!
I'm currently using my new macbook ! Oh gosh I love it sooooo much! Way better than a regular PC.
I just had breakfast, although I have work to do for Mr.S I'm putting it off, and it's not like he'll fire me or anything...I think.
Yesterday I browsed CL and put up an ad, received a whole lot of messages from creepers. this one guy asked me if I wanted to go to an orgy party with him...umm I love my life and not trying to catch anything and die so no thanks!
I talked to two possible guys to meet up with from CL, I'm meeting one for lunch in an hour. He's tall, works in my town, but lives in NYC. He also have a place in my town cause he was tired of the commute. He's 32, looks really good, look younger than his age, works in Finance. This is not a sugary date but when coming up with plans on what we wanted to do he mentioned taking me shopping!!! Lol how perfect is that. But I acted like it was a strange idea since we don't even know each other and he wants to take me shopping. I feel like he have some SD instinct in him. He said every woman he talks to on CL always need someone to take them shopping. I'm going to welcome the idea after our date. I'm so excited!! I don't want him as an SD maybe just someone I can see as a normal, casual relationship. He will make me want to come home on the weekends some more..hopefully. Hopefully fall in love in get married? I'm dreaming again...
The other guy I spoke to is alright, he's 34 and seem really put together. He lives outside of NYC, so I'm not really welcoming the idea of meeting him. But I'm keeping him as a back up just in case that it doesn't work out with this guy.
VEGAS!!!! Last night, Mr.S purchased our ticket for Vegas, We will be going in Mid January for 4 days, not as long of a trip as I'd hope, but never been to Vegas and going with him is perfect. It will be a luxurious trip, we're staying at the Palms, spas, shows, and try to do the whole nine yard. I'm psyched, I wish he would surprise me with a Private Jet like last year, but I'm not counting on it. Either way, I'm psyched !!!
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
10 days Without My SD is Like a Year Without Rain
Corny? Yes.
I'm currently seating at a coffee shop, had breakfast, coffee, then pulled out my laptop for some bullshiting. I look awfully cute and dressed very business woman ish. I'm hoping to maybe score a man later around lunch time. A lot of business man come here for coffee breaks and such. They're always so shy, it's so hard for a black woman to have a white man come over and strike a conversation with them. When I know they're looking I usually turn to look at them and smile, that usually get them. I'm home the entire week and it would be nice to have someone to have a little quick fling with-sugary filled or not.
I was suppose to meet this guy I talked to on EM, the one who didn't know EM was a SB/SD site. I had to cancel on him during the weekend because it was my BFF's Bday weekend, even though she didn't really make any plans, last minute she was telling me she wanted to go out and I would feel bad if I didn't go out with her. SO, I canceled on him and made plans for lunch the next day, he said he would let me know about lunch. He never texted or call so I didn't either. I'm pretty stubborn, I know. but I don't chase guys. Although, I did text him Merry Christmas and had a short convo. He barely gave me any feedback and I'm pretty sure he's not interested in meeting anymore. What a little Bitch! Lol. I'm over him, but I can't help but wonder. He works in Wall street, he was very attractive, perfect age (39), he really fitted the picture of the kind of guy I'd want to marry. I was secretly mad at my BFF for having to cancel, cause he was VERY ecstatic to meet me that evening. BLAH! Maybe he'll come around before I leave. I wouldn't have mind spending my 10 days with him and maybe have some great amazing sex. Ok. I'm Horny.
Mr.S and I talked earlier and he's suppose to send some work my way and still haven't. I've been lurking around on the sites, and some of these men disgust me sometimes. This man wanted to offer me 250 to spend time with him 2-3 times a week. HA! I didn't even message back. And this man wanted me to drive to Phillie- a 6 hr drive to meet him HALFWAY (He's about 10 hrs from me). Too cheap to get me a plane ticket or train ticket. This man on EM wanted to meet someone late last night and was trying to find a bargain by messaging a bunch of girls to see who would go for the lowest price. As much as I'm looking for a quick fling, sugar or not, I know my worth.
My SD said he's moving money around, I wish he would move some money over to me HA! I feel like doing some major shopping!...just not from my savings Lol.
I'm currently seating at a coffee shop, had breakfast, coffee, then pulled out my laptop for some bullshiting. I look awfully cute and dressed very business woman ish. I'm hoping to maybe score a man later around lunch time. A lot of business man come here for coffee breaks and such. They're always so shy, it's so hard for a black woman to have a white man come over and strike a conversation with them. When I know they're looking I usually turn to look at them and smile, that usually get them. I'm home the entire week and it would be nice to have someone to have a little quick fling with-sugary filled or not.
I was suppose to meet this guy I talked to on EM, the one who didn't know EM was a SB/SD site. I had to cancel on him during the weekend because it was my BFF's Bday weekend, even though she didn't really make any plans, last minute she was telling me she wanted to go out and I would feel bad if I didn't go out with her. SO, I canceled on him and made plans for lunch the next day, he said he would let me know about lunch. He never texted or call so I didn't either. I'm pretty stubborn, I know. but I don't chase guys. Although, I did text him Merry Christmas and had a short convo. He barely gave me any feedback and I'm pretty sure he's not interested in meeting anymore. What a little Bitch! Lol. I'm over him, but I can't help but wonder. He works in Wall street, he was very attractive, perfect age (39), he really fitted the picture of the kind of guy I'd want to marry. I was secretly mad at my BFF for having to cancel, cause he was VERY ecstatic to meet me that evening. BLAH! Maybe he'll come around before I leave. I wouldn't have mind spending my 10 days with him and maybe have some great amazing sex. Ok. I'm Horny.
Mr.S and I talked earlier and he's suppose to send some work my way and still haven't. I've been lurking around on the sites, and some of these men disgust me sometimes. This man wanted to offer me 250 to spend time with him 2-3 times a week. HA! I didn't even message back. And this man wanted me to drive to Phillie- a 6 hr drive to meet him HALFWAY (He's about 10 hrs from me). Too cheap to get me a plane ticket or train ticket. This man on EM wanted to meet someone late last night and was trying to find a bargain by messaging a bunch of girls to see who would go for the lowest price. As much as I'm looking for a quick fling, sugar or not, I know my worth.
My SD said he's moving money around, I wish he would move some money over to me HA! I feel like doing some major shopping!...just not from my savings Lol.
Monday, December 26, 2011
YouBetterSpoilMeBaby !
I hope everyone is enjoying the holidays and having some sugar come their way!
Hope Santa was good to all of y'all.
I'm still a little overwhelmed about the gifts Mr.S gave me.
He truly made my Christmas special, this was our second Christmas together.
My list of gifts included:
-nice new LV suitcase which I'm hoping it means more travel time for us.
-New Apple Macbook, with a cute Michael Kors carrying Case Loved it!!
-Planet of The apes DVD- We both watched it in theaters and loved it. Funny thing is I also got him the same thing, so it was kind of cute.
- A cute shirt from Bebe-on of my favorite stores
-New speakers, my last one stop working
-A bag filled with Victoria Secret goodies: lingerie, lotion, perfumes, pjs, ect...
- A nice scented candle
- 500 cash--I asked him if he was my uncle lol
- 500 gift card to take train home whenever
-100 gift card to GNC --told him part of my new years goal is to tighten up my body
- And this gorgeous diamond necklace, which I think he invested quite a bit in.
So my best friends who kind of knows about this brought this up to me. she asked if his money turns me on? She had a bf (not an SD) who adored her and got her everything she wanted or didn't even want. She said his money turned her on. I feel deep down I've felt that way but kept it hidden, a guy treating me so well does turn me on a lot. Taking me shopping, pampering me gives an extra boost. I've always kind of wanted to have sex on bed fill with $, so in the end, does money makes me cum? No. It turns me on, but I have a man to worship every part of my body and make me cum over and over again.
Hope Santa was good to all of y'all.
I'm still a little overwhelmed about the gifts Mr.S gave me.
He truly made my Christmas special, this was our second Christmas together.
My list of gifts included:
-nice new LV suitcase which I'm hoping it means more travel time for us.
-New Apple Macbook, with a cute Michael Kors carrying Case Loved it!!
-Planet of The apes DVD- We both watched it in theaters and loved it. Funny thing is I also got him the same thing, so it was kind of cute.
- A cute shirt from Bebe-on of my favorite stores
-New speakers, my last one stop working
-A bag filled with Victoria Secret goodies: lingerie, lotion, perfumes, pjs, ect...
- A nice scented candle
- 500 cash--I asked him if he was my uncle lol
- 500 gift card to take train home whenever
-100 gift card to GNC --told him part of my new years goal is to tighten up my body
- And this gorgeous diamond necklace, which I think he invested quite a bit in.
So my best friends who kind of knows about this brought this up to me. she asked if his money turns me on? She had a bf (not an SD) who adored her and got her everything she wanted or didn't even want. She said his money turned her on. I feel deep down I've felt that way but kept it hidden, a guy treating me so well does turn me on a lot. Taking me shopping, pampering me gives an extra boost. I've always kind of wanted to have sex on bed fill with $, so in the end, does money makes me cum? No. It turns me on, but I have a man to worship every part of my body and make me cum over and over again.
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Maybe he's worth a try...
I didn't give an update on my meet with the new pot. First of all, if a man send you a pic of his head and another pic of his body without them both attach, yes there's something wrong there. His face looked like the picture, but the picture of his body was definitely not accurate. He claims he's doing a lot of body building for about 5 years now.
When I got to the restaurant, he was at the bar and spotted me right away, he got up to walk over and OMG his belly made him look like he was prego for 9 months. Maybe he photoshop the pic he sent me, IDK but FALSE ADVERTISING ! I was a little thrown off and anyone could tell from the impression on my face, but like an SB always should, I went along with the date and he didn't turn out to be that bad personality wise. He's also not bad looking in the face. I could tell we had some chemistry, conversation flew smoothly, we were laughing and making jokes, I was comfortable.
After the date, he walked me to my car, and give me a kiss. A peck would have been just fine, but it was a long kiss, at least he didn't french me, YUCK!, and his breath wasn't so pleasant. hopefully it was just something he ate, a bad breath in any kind of relationship does not work well with me.
Overall, he's looking for a mutual beneficial relationship, so, I think I might see where it goes and see what he can bring to the table before making any decisions. He could definitely be my back up SD if he play his cards right!
When I got to the restaurant, he was at the bar and spotted me right away, he got up to walk over and OMG his belly made him look like he was prego for 9 months. Maybe he photoshop the pic he sent me, IDK but FALSE ADVERTISING ! I was a little thrown off and anyone could tell from the impression on my face, but like an SB always should, I went along with the date and he didn't turn out to be that bad personality wise. He's also not bad looking in the face. I could tell we had some chemistry, conversation flew smoothly, we were laughing and making jokes, I was comfortable.
After the date, he walked me to my car, and give me a kiss. A peck would have been just fine, but it was a long kiss, at least he didn't french me, YUCK!, and his breath wasn't so pleasant. hopefully it was just something he ate, a bad breath in any kind of relationship does not work well with me.
Overall, he's looking for a mutual beneficial relationship, so, I think I might see where it goes and see what he can bring to the table before making any decisions. He could definitely be my back up SD if he play his cards right!
Monday, December 19, 2011
New Beginnings
6 days till Christmas!!! Just really can't wait to be home, I miss my family and my great friends.
I had a very interesting weekend, yesterday Mr.S and I did a 12 hr textathon Lol. We literally texted back and forth from 2pm till a little after 2 Am. He would have kept it going if I didn't pass out on him. I know he's married and everything but he never have trouble communicating with me, some other SB's have mention how their married SD's usually are unable to communicate with them when they're not together. So I'm very lucky with him that he find the freedom to keep in touch.Plus he sleep in a separated bedroom so that helps.
He finally said I Love you, he sneaked it in there during our convo. I love making men fall in love with me, I secretly made it my plan after me and him started getting more involve. SUCCESS! He talked about how he's been hurting, he found my SA profile and realized how perfect it was and that I was offering what we have to other men for a price. He have told me what I give to him is priceless. He's been thinking a lot about having to share me with someone else since I told him about having another SD. I told him about just worrying that if things end and I will be left in the dark without a back up plan, and haven't been saving up with my allowance.
He made me a deal: of course. If I delete my profile and see just him, he will increase my allowance 1k so, in a month between my allowance and work I should accumulate about 5k. He's still going to take care of my expenses, take me shopping more, and after new years look into buying a new car. He also offer me an exit package: I would have my apt for 3 months more or whenever my lease would be over, and extended if I needed to, a check for 10k (minimum but will probably be more), and help with finding a job if I choose to stay in the area. He wants exclusivity as far as being in the sugar world, he wants to be the one and only but I'm still allowed to do my casual dating as long as he doesn't see flowers and gifts from those guys. Also told me, I have a BLANK CHECK on my name, anything I want, I get. VERY TEMPTING !!
I haven't giving him an answer yet, but I think I will take the offer. I've been dreaming about a 2011 BMW convertible. Seems like the perfect way to start the new year to me! Def a step up from my 13 year old Toyota.
I also have my profiles on SD4me.com, SD.com, and EM..but he doesn't know, and I don't think I'd want to risk him finding them out and ending things. I'm torn.
If anyone have any comments on whether I should or not, let me know! could use advice.
I had a very interesting weekend, yesterday Mr.S and I did a 12 hr textathon Lol. We literally texted back and forth from 2pm till a little after 2 Am. He would have kept it going if I didn't pass out on him. I know he's married and everything but he never have trouble communicating with me, some other SB's have mention how their married SD's usually are unable to communicate with them when they're not together. So I'm very lucky with him that he find the freedom to keep in touch.Plus he sleep in a separated bedroom so that helps.
He finally said I Love you, he sneaked it in there during our convo. I love making men fall in love with me, I secretly made it my plan after me and him started getting more involve. SUCCESS! He talked about how he's been hurting, he found my SA profile and realized how perfect it was and that I was offering what we have to other men for a price. He have told me what I give to him is priceless. He's been thinking a lot about having to share me with someone else since I told him about having another SD. I told him about just worrying that if things end and I will be left in the dark without a back up plan, and haven't been saving up with my allowance.
He made me a deal: of course. If I delete my profile and see just him, he will increase my allowance 1k so, in a month between my allowance and work I should accumulate about 5k. He's still going to take care of my expenses, take me shopping more, and after new years look into buying a new car. He also offer me an exit package: I would have my apt for 3 months more or whenever my lease would be over, and extended if I needed to, a check for 10k (minimum but will probably be more), and help with finding a job if I choose to stay in the area. He wants exclusivity as far as being in the sugar world, he wants to be the one and only but I'm still allowed to do my casual dating as long as he doesn't see flowers and gifts from those guys. Also told me, I have a BLANK CHECK on my name, anything I want, I get. VERY TEMPTING !!
I haven't giving him an answer yet, but I think I will take the offer. I've been dreaming about a 2011 BMW convertible. Seems like the perfect way to start the new year to me! Def a step up from my 13 year old Toyota.
I also have my profiles on SD4me.com, SD.com, and EM..but he doesn't know, and I don't think I'd want to risk him finding them out and ending things. I'm torn.
If anyone have any comments on whether I should or not, let me know! could use advice.
Saturday, December 17, 2011
Pre-Christmas Gift!
A few weeks ago Mr.S told me about one of my christmas gifts, I got extremely excited and couldn't wait so he gave it to me as a pre-Christmas gift!
I LOVE watches and I've been looking for a nice silver watch, and he knew it so he got me this nice MK watch! I love it!
I LOVE watches and I've been looking for a nice silver watch, and he knew it so he got me this nice MK watch! I love it!
Weekend! Yay....Not!
Since I moved I haven't been able to make close friends. During the summer my friends visited a lot, didn't really look into making new friends and I went home a lot. But lately it's too much of hassle coming home for a weekend and coming back. I choose to stay in town, there's been a few guys I've been dating casually (non sugars), but doesn't ever go nowhere. MATCH sucks! I hate dating young guys.
SO if there's any SB's who read my profile and is in my area, Let's talk! would like to have a few friends who enjoy the same lifestyle as I do! email me or something and let's shop!!
Pot Updates!
This Sunday I'm meeting with a new pot!!! I haven't met with a new pot in such a long time. I'm getting nervous thinking about it. He's a lawyer, lives about 15 mns from me. Not that old, 43. Perfect age. Income is very high. I think he's looking for more of a relationship, but I told him I'm looking for a traditional sb/sd relationship but if it evolve into more would be open to it. OH and he's single. He's good looking except with some facial hair, never dated a man with facial hair but we'll see how it goes. I hope the chemistry's there and he's able to match my needs.
I've also been talking to this guy I met in EM. He's 39, a trader in NYC (lot of sugar there!) we exchanged emails on EM and that same night exchanged numbers, we texted until almost 1am and it was fun. I'm not sure if he's playing me but I asked him what he's looking for, he said a relationship. He told me about some the emails he's been getting and about the nature of the site. SUPPOSEDLY he had no idea that it was a SB/SD site! He might be fooling me and doing a good job at it. I'm not totally oppose to see him for just casual dating, I need a guy out of the sugar world who I can just be with and haven't found that. When I go home for Christmas we plan on meeting up in the City, so looking forward to that!!
Mr.S and I had a talk, I told him how I felt, about him not appreciating me as he used to. And our lifestyle just getting dull. He agreed and said he should be doing more to make and keep me happy and not just making me comfortable. Which toucheed my heart =) I worked with him on Friday, and in between my two days work of a total of 5 hours, he wrote me a big fat checck for $500 =) talk about a bonus, I must have done something right in the office ;) HAHA! I'm not bringing up the idea to increase my allowance yet, with Christmas and everything, I want things to calm down a bit and I know he have a lot of spending to do.
SO if there's any SB's who read my profile and is in my area, Let's talk! would like to have a few friends who enjoy the same lifestyle as I do! email me or something and let's shop!!
Pot Updates!
This Sunday I'm meeting with a new pot!!! I haven't met with a new pot in such a long time. I'm getting nervous thinking about it. He's a lawyer, lives about 15 mns from me. Not that old, 43. Perfect age. Income is very high. I think he's looking for more of a relationship, but I told him I'm looking for a traditional sb/sd relationship but if it evolve into more would be open to it. OH and he's single. He's good looking except with some facial hair, never dated a man with facial hair but we'll see how it goes. I hope the chemistry's there and he's able to match my needs.
I've also been talking to this guy I met in EM. He's 39, a trader in NYC (lot of sugar there!) we exchanged emails on EM and that same night exchanged numbers, we texted until almost 1am and it was fun. I'm not sure if he's playing me but I asked him what he's looking for, he said a relationship. He told me about some the emails he's been getting and about the nature of the site. SUPPOSEDLY he had no idea that it was a SB/SD site! He might be fooling me and doing a good job at it. I'm not totally oppose to see him for just casual dating, I need a guy out of the sugar world who I can just be with and haven't found that. When I go home for Christmas we plan on meeting up in the City, so looking forward to that!!
Mr.S and I had a talk, I told him how I felt, about him not appreciating me as he used to. And our lifestyle just getting dull. He agreed and said he should be doing more to make and keep me happy and not just making me comfortable. Which toucheed my heart =) I worked with him on Friday, and in between my two days work of a total of 5 hours, he wrote me a big fat checck for $500 =) talk about a bonus, I must have done something right in the office ;) HAHA! I'm not bringing up the idea to increase my allowance yet, with Christmas and everything, I want things to calm down a bit and I know he have a lot of spending to do.
Thursday, December 15, 2011
There's Hope for the Hopeless !
I did not go to work today. It was suppose to be my 2nd day but Mr.S had some family business that came up dealing with the kids. So, we had lunch around noon, which was a bit awkward because it seems we both have so much on our mind and haven't been talking. Then we saw a movie, The Sitter, Ha! hilarious! we cuddled a bit at movie, a little make out here and there and it felt like it's suppose to be.
We headed to my place after and that's when we both poured out our emotions. Since I've told him about me searching for a 2nd SD I guess it's been eating him up inside because of jealousy and not wanting to lose me. It made me feel real good to hear that. AND then he rambled on about how he just want to be with me, LITERALLY be with me, if he could wave a magic wand and not be married and just have me that's what he would want.
I am so much smarter than that. I know the situation he's in, and it's not like I've never thought about him leaving his wife for me, but I snap right back to reality and don't let my thoughts take over. I didn't tell him that. I know better, and I will not let myself think someday he will be mine. Magic doesn't exist, that wand of his is never going to appear. He mentioned how it's impossible for him to change his situation and that's a LOAD of crap. Nothing's impossible, only reason he wouldn't change a thing is because he doesn't want to.
After all the talking, he asked for a hug, we were hugged up on my couch with me sitting on him. I love how he smell. We decided to go to me bedroom and lay in bed. We just cuddled, and share a few intimate kisses. We didn't have sex, we made love. Hot, passionate, a little freaky ;) love. He know just how to please me and that's why I can never get enough of him.
Current mood>>>Hungry, About to order some Sushi for dinner! YUM!
We headed to my place after and that's when we both poured out our emotions. Since I've told him about me searching for a 2nd SD I guess it's been eating him up inside because of jealousy and not wanting to lose me. It made me feel real good to hear that. AND then he rambled on about how he just want to be with me, LITERALLY be with me, if he could wave a magic wand and not be married and just have me that's what he would want.
I am so much smarter than that. I know the situation he's in, and it's not like I've never thought about him leaving his wife for me, but I snap right back to reality and don't let my thoughts take over. I didn't tell him that. I know better, and I will not let myself think someday he will be mine. Magic doesn't exist, that wand of his is never going to appear. He mentioned how it's impossible for him to change his situation and that's a LOAD of crap. Nothing's impossible, only reason he wouldn't change a thing is because he doesn't want to.
After all the talking, he asked for a hug, we were hugged up on my couch with me sitting on him. I love how he smell. We decided to go to me bedroom and lay in bed. We just cuddled, and share a few intimate kisses. We didn't have sex, we made love. Hot, passionate, a little freaky ;) love. He know just how to please me and that's why I can never get enough of him.
Current mood>>>Hungry, About to order some Sushi for dinner! YUM!
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Current Status
So, enough background about Mr.S. I'm currently sitting on my dining table blogging away. A lot to get off my chest. I had my first day with Mr.S at the office yesterday. He got me this new laptop, an HP and it's HUGE! I hate big laptops and I'm kind of irritated he didn't ask me what I wanted. I plan on just leaving it at the office just to get my point acrross and prove it. MEN are so CLUELESS sometimes. I don't have another computer but I have my Ipad which I do just fine using. I really wanted my first Apple notebook. He has been irritating me a lot lately. I've beeen doing a lot of thinking about how my allowance just isn't enough to get me by. I pay my phone bill, car insurance, a loan I took from a sibling, school loans just got to me, and my credit card bill, food, ect...this barely leave me money to go out or do a little splurge if I wanted to! And lately there have been no shopping trips, and I'm not feeling as appreciated as I use to feel, which is making me want him less. And that's why I'm on the hunt for a second SD.
I've thought about talking about it with him. But sometimes when I bring up my feelings to him we sometimes end up fighting and I don't need that. He have asked me to have just him as an SD cause it would bother him if I had someone else. Well the thruth of the matter is, he didn't even have the audacity to ask me why I want someone else. It's been two years with him, and he didn't seem to care. He only said he don't want to have to compete with anyone else for my affection, and such. It feels like he has change, he doesn't show as much appreciation as he use to. He barely ask me if I'm doing alright, need anything, showing any caring for my well being. This is from the Sugar side of things. Otherwise, everything in the bedroom is great and we get along great, but in the back of my head it feels like we have gotten comfortable with each other. He treats me more as his girflriend which I don't mind but I love my Sweets. I deserve gifts, shopping, and not just affection. I have the feeling since he already have me, he's not doing much of what he use to do to make me happy. I'm keeping him as happy a man could be, I give him affection, the best sex, listen to all his problems, I surprise him with new lingerie, bubble baths, rose pedals on the bed, making his favorite desert, sending him cute texts, purchasing new toys to keep it hot in the bedroom, I'm going above and beyond for him and I don't exactly feel he's doing the same.
I've thought about this over and over. Am I being a greedy bitch? Am I not appreciating what I have?
I just know I didn't join the sugar life to live in a luxurious apartment, and struggling to pay my bills and not having things I'd like to have.
I've thought about talking about it with him. But sometimes when I bring up my feelings to him we sometimes end up fighting and I don't need that. He have asked me to have just him as an SD cause it would bother him if I had someone else. Well the thruth of the matter is, he didn't even have the audacity to ask me why I want someone else. It's been two years with him, and he didn't seem to care. He only said he don't want to have to compete with anyone else for my affection, and such. It feels like he has change, he doesn't show as much appreciation as he use to. He barely ask me if I'm doing alright, need anything, showing any caring for my well being. This is from the Sugar side of things. Otherwise, everything in the bedroom is great and we get along great, but in the back of my head it feels like we have gotten comfortable with each other. He treats me more as his girflriend which I don't mind but I love my Sweets. I deserve gifts, shopping, and not just affection. I have the feeling since he already have me, he's not doing much of what he use to do to make me happy. I'm keeping him as happy a man could be, I give him affection, the best sex, listen to all his problems, I surprise him with new lingerie, bubble baths, rose pedals on the bed, making his favorite desert, sending him cute texts, purchasing new toys to keep it hot in the bedroom, I'm going above and beyond for him and I don't exactly feel he's doing the same.
I've thought about this over and over. Am I being a greedy bitch? Am I not appreciating what I have?
I just know I didn't join the sugar life to live in a luxurious apartment, and struggling to pay my bills and not having things I'd like to have.
What Have I Gotten Myself into pt 2
Mr S. did all the apartment search, couldn't really do much from where I was. I looked online and he gave me a budget of 1500. We ended up settling on a very spacious and luxurious one bedroom. I love everything about it, and since it's already furnish it ended up costing about 2200 monthly. I'm at a point where I kind of want
my own furniture though. Moving, almost 200 miles from home was kind of a big step for me, but it was an opportunity in a lifetime. even working a 9-5 entry level job I wouldn't be able to afford what I have now.
It's been close to half year since the move. I started looking for a job with Mr.S but didn't really put much effort into it. I kind of wanted to enjoy my place, have friends over and party lol! Which I did. Mr.S and I came to realize working a normal job would not be such a good idea since I see him during the day. he owns his own busniess, we spend a lot of time together during the day until he goes home about 5 ish. honestly, he's a damn good time. He's amazing in bed! I know the feeling of sleeping with someone even when you don't want to, but with him it's like one of the best lovers I've had. I love everything about him and we just get each other and click on a whole different level. I have been falling in and out of love with him (more on that later). I know he has real feelings for me too which he have express so many times.
Our level of trust with each other is crazy. I sometimes think I'm crazy for trusting a cheating husband the way I do. But it just feel right, we have that connection where we don't see each other as just a casual relationship but more as lovers and close to a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship. We have had ups and downs but always end up on top. Our feelings for each other sometimes get in the way of things, but that's what happen when you get involve emotionally in this type of situation.
my own furniture though. Moving, almost 200 miles from home was kind of a big step for me, but it was an opportunity in a lifetime. even working a 9-5 entry level job I wouldn't be able to afford what I have now.
It's been close to half year since the move. I started looking for a job with Mr.S but didn't really put much effort into it. I kind of wanted to enjoy my place, have friends over and party lol! Which I did. Mr.S and I came to realize working a normal job would not be such a good idea since I see him during the day. he owns his own busniess, we spend a lot of time together during the day until he goes home about 5 ish. honestly, he's a damn good time. He's amazing in bed! I know the feeling of sleeping with someone even when you don't want to, but with him it's like one of the best lovers I've had. I love everything about him and we just get each other and click on a whole different level. I have been falling in and out of love with him (more on that later). I know he has real feelings for me too which he have express so many times.
Our level of trust with each other is crazy. I sometimes think I'm crazy for trusting a cheating husband the way I do. But it just feel right, we have that connection where we don't see each other as just a casual relationship but more as lovers and close to a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship. We have had ups and downs but always end up on top. Our feelings for each other sometimes get in the way of things, but that's what happen when you get involve emotionally in this type of situation.
What Have I Gotten Myself into pt 1
I will break down how I became a full time SB in two parts.
Mr. S and I have been together for almost 2 years. We started off with seeing each occasionally. Since we both lived in different states, we would meet about twice a month, sometimes once a month depending on his schedule. I was in college, all my classes were morning and midday so I had most afternoons and nights to fufill my need for sugar. He was kind of running two companies. one which was located in my state so it made it easy for him to spend nights at hotels with wifey not having to question him. Yes, he has a wife, 4 kids and in his early 30's. Wifey is a great deal older than him. I tried adding it all up and I'm still now searching for an answer about how that came about.
Everytime we met, he always treated me to fancy dinners, a few shopping trips, and always left me with cash in the morning. he was a very generous man. we never talked about an allowance because I knew we only see each other when possible, sometimes we would go months without contact but always end up getting back in touch. He was kind of an emergency fund. after about 6, 7 months he quit one of his business and had more free time, so we decided we would meet 1 to 3 times a month with an allowance of 1500, and even if we didnt meet all 3 times he would still provide it. that went on for awhile. he still took me on a few shopping trips, we celebrated our one year, took me to florida, and a few other business trips he had. He was the first one that I flew privately with. that was one of my biggest dose of the luxurious life.
Senior year of college, I was as lost as everyone else about what my future would be. I asked him to help me with an internship. Which he did, I did an internship in his state for my whole senior year which brought us a lot closer and trusted in each other a lot more. saw him a lot more which meant more sugar, and gifts, I was as happy as can be. come graduation, he made me a proposal: since I had no jobs lined up, he would help me find one. He asked that I move to his state, he would take care of every bill and give me a monthly allowance of 1500. I had the biggest smile on my face and gratefully accepted. ( to be continued)
Mr. S and I have been together for almost 2 years. We started off with seeing each occasionally. Since we both lived in different states, we would meet about twice a month, sometimes once a month depending on his schedule. I was in college, all my classes were morning and midday so I had most afternoons and nights to fufill my need for sugar. He was kind of running two companies. one which was located in my state so it made it easy for him to spend nights at hotels with wifey not having to question him. Yes, he has a wife, 4 kids and in his early 30's. Wifey is a great deal older than him. I tried adding it all up and I'm still now searching for an answer about how that came about.
Everytime we met, he always treated me to fancy dinners, a few shopping trips, and always left me with cash in the morning. he was a very generous man. we never talked about an allowance because I knew we only see each other when possible, sometimes we would go months without contact but always end up getting back in touch. He was kind of an emergency fund. after about 6, 7 months he quit one of his business and had more free time, so we decided we would meet 1 to 3 times a month with an allowance of 1500, and even if we didnt meet all 3 times he would still provide it. that went on for awhile. he still took me on a few shopping trips, we celebrated our one year, took me to florida, and a few other business trips he had. He was the first one that I flew privately with. that was one of my biggest dose of the luxurious life.
Senior year of college, I was as lost as everyone else about what my future would be. I asked him to help me with an internship. Which he did, I did an internship in his state for my whole senior year which brought us a lot closer and trusted in each other a lot more. saw him a lot more which meant more sugar, and gifts, I was as happy as can be. come graduation, he made me a proposal: since I had no jobs lined up, he would help me find one. He asked that I move to his state, he would take care of every bill and give me a monthly allowance of 1500. I had the biggest smile on my face and gratefully accepted. ( to be continued)
Hello All!
After having been a part of the Sugar World for quite sometimes, I've finally discovered the blogging world. I figured if there's any way to get anything off my chest ( since none of my friends know about this secret life of mine) it would be to blog about it.
Judging from my title, I considered myself a full time Sugarbaby until a few days ago. I lived a comfortable life and wasn't working until my SD, I'll call him Mr. S. He proposed the idea I work for him part time, about 15hrs or so a week, which I didn't oblige to because that's extra sugar and my resume is up to date. ( will go into more details about this later)
The Sugar World can be very time consuming, and just with any kind of business, if you don't put in the work you don't get results. When I first started I was a naive young college girl, I didn't educate myself well enough about what to expect and whom I would come in contact with. I did a lot of stupid shiit, got played a lot, what I was doing became more on the level of escorting comparing to being a sugarbaby. a LOT of Flakes and endless emails. No shows, cancellations, beating around the bush, lowering my expectations.>>>one thing you should never do, know what you want, and what you are worth and stick to it.
Regardless of those mishaps, I still kept searching and learned from my mistakes. I believe every sugarbaby will at least find one good SD who they will consider The One. "Pretty Woman" is one of my favorite movies, and we can all guess why, but it wasn't just about falling in love for me, it was more of finding someone to rescue you while you were at your worst. if you find an SD who's able to do that for you and treat you with the utmost respect and value, then you have found Your One.
Judging from my title, I considered myself a full time Sugarbaby until a few days ago. I lived a comfortable life and wasn't working until my SD, I'll call him Mr. S. He proposed the idea I work for him part time, about 15hrs or so a week, which I didn't oblige to because that's extra sugar and my resume is up to date. ( will go into more details about this later)
The Sugar World can be very time consuming, and just with any kind of business, if you don't put in the work you don't get results. When I first started I was a naive young college girl, I didn't educate myself well enough about what to expect and whom I would come in contact with. I did a lot of stupid shiit, got played a lot, what I was doing became more on the level of escorting comparing to being a sugarbaby. a LOT of Flakes and endless emails. No shows, cancellations, beating around the bush, lowering my expectations.>>>one thing you should never do, know what you want, and what you are worth and stick to it.
Regardless of those mishaps, I still kept searching and learned from my mistakes. I believe every sugarbaby will at least find one good SD who they will consider The One. "Pretty Woman" is one of my favorite movies, and we can all guess why, but it wasn't just about falling in love for me, it was more of finding someone to rescue you while you were at your worst. if you find an SD who's able to do that for you and treat you with the utmost respect and value, then you have found Your One.
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